Am i going crazy or is facebook ruining my mind ?

[shallowwrenchadvice738]

I have no idea how common this problem is or maybe i am the only one facing it. I am 22 years old. Being the only child and a loner i've never had many friends my age to mingle around with. Growing up in an over pampered manner, i am an overtly sensitive emotional fool, very immature in dealings of life too. So i got into a relationship with a guy, its been four years with him and he is my only best friend around here. I am studying away from home and being a very private person, i never have much interaction with people and never did also before. So entered facebook into my life. All my school time acquaintances and college mates became my friends. It came as a sudden release of the person inside me as i started updating each and every move of mine onto it. People would comment and maybe i enjoyed all that attention, i got hooked onto it. Then me and my guy would have fights, i'd get emotionally broken and would swear and abuse and status shit about him. Again we would make up and i'd write beautiful love quotes. Actually i didnt consciously realize what i was doing, letting people get to know my weaknesses or my personal life.... i was just venting. Venting came easy and all those lovely spirit lifting comments would do good. Otherwise i'd just be sitting alone and crying. I got addicted to facebook and it was ok until then . . but i started flirting on facebook. Well the quiet and committed girl that i was in real life and my first boyfriend had been with me for the past four years, when guys actually hit on me, i don't know i suddenly got some crazy lift and started flirting back. I developed an online relation with a guy . . and things started getting complicated with him and me and my guy . . blah blah blah . . i feel like a bitch now . . so many things followed . . all cause of me getting hooked onto facebook . . like an idiot . . and then came the comments . . i used to think that people don't take facebook seriously and forget whatever is being written on it . . but today a guy told me "i would never allow my gf to facebook like you do, its like you have no secret and people know too much of your life' . . i felt so cold inside hearing that . . and it seems another lady was talking about how intimate me and my guy get on facebook sometimes and sometimes i get depressed and post abuses on my wall and it gets her bugged looking at it . . i feel so very embarrassed at my behaviour now . . i don't know how i slowly lost control of my life . . my emotions . . my reactions . . and all of it on facebook . . for the whole world to see . . i am actually a very private person . . but on facebook . . i acted like some cheap drama queen . . letting people peek into my personal life . . and i don't know why i did it . . i am going to deactivate my account today . . i hope i can stay away . . it has complicated my life so much . .
and i am doubting my sanity now . . i think i am some crazy shit . . i can't figure what has gone wrong with me and where i los my mind and my sense of emotional control ???