What does this guy mean?! NEED REPLIES PLEASE!!!!?

[Rosie F]

i was in a "thing" with a boy i had so much in common with - same sense of humour, same tastes, especially in music. We had a few dates, not many,, and we were originally set up by a mutual friend. Everytime he saw me there was kissing etc, he was a little shy. a few days after knowing me, he went away to a music festival and called me every night, telling me he liked me a lot, missed me, why hadnt i texted him?

then a mere day after he got back, i saw him, with some of his friends. he was protective, gentlemanly, and when they left we had the most romantic evening in the park - he was all over me, and we made out for about two hours. By the way, we're both only fifteen.

So then the next day he had to see his band, and then after i asked to see him he seemed distant and maybe even relunctant, ignoring me a bit. I didnt pay much attention, but I decided to have a group of friends round the next day, inviting him. When he came with his friend, he seemed to be smiling all over etc, but then when I had to take care of about 7 other friends, including my ex thats my best friend now, he withdrew and looked so grumpy, on his phone, i didnt make an effort to talk to him because i thought he'd try to. but he didnt, so i spent some more time with the others, wondering what was wrong with him. he tried to speak to me once, he was sort of nice... shared our private joke, but i kinda just laughed and ignored him....

but then he ran off earlier, and left my house...at like 8pm when everyone else left at 10/11....to go see his "band". i had an i dont care attitude at the time, but then the next day i thought i'd been a ***** so i made a few attempts to call him. he was like "god i was at rugby" and when i called him again, and apologised for not paying enough attention to him, he was like "were you rude?" and pretended not to know what i was speaking about...? and then he went on to say "oh, well im sorry but i dont think we should do anything else. i dont feel the same way about you as i did."

in my head i was like DAFUQ but i said to him.."oh fair enough..bye".... im friends with all his friends so naturally they asked about it and being hurt as i was, and how what he said was so out of the blue, i said things like "hes arrogant" and i "wouldnt have gone out with him anyway"....and they showed him the texts....


so he apologised to me again over facebook and told me to stop "hating on him for it"...

so then we didnt speak until my birthday party. it was a pool party at mine, and everyone told me i did look hot or something, i was wearing a bodycon dress that showed off my hourglass figure they said, and when he came i was normal and hugged him although he told my friends before he thought it'd be awkward... and then i didnt have any time to speak to him, i dont think he cared. but when i was swimming, he was very drunk, and he slung me over his shoulder and drowned me... and when i asked what he was doing he said "i love you" repeatedly. he didnt remember this and i think he told my best mate he "loved her" too, but i thought maybe yknow, a sober persons thoughts are a drunk persons words....

and we speak now and again since then, but not about much. recently ive been speaking to him first but really, he's all i daydream about. we had amazing chemistry, lovely memories and its so odd that it was cut so short. please dont reply "oh just talk to him about it" because i have....he said "look im sorry if i ****** things up between us, its my fault . " does that mean hes sorry he ended it, or sorry if he hurt me? i just had no idea. and still, im hurt so whenever his friends mention him im not exactly kind so i should probably stop that. i just miss him a lot, because what we had which was so simple became so unnecessarily complicated.... apparently he thought i was gorgeous for 6 months before he even got to know me? and recently hes also asked me to write his band lyrics because he knows im good at it? i dont even know, im not even expecting a relationship because im not sure i could manage one and neither could he. i just liked being with him, kissing him, liking him. thats all. and theres no one else. what should i do!!?