17 . No school , No job , No friends, Nothing?

[Nicholas]

im 17 years old

independent study , cant go back to regular highschool , im done with it this year

I have applied to every place in town but not even one called back ( over 30 places ) .

Moving around along with doing independent study all through highschool , made one friend for a few months, she stopped being my friend for no reason , i mean she gave me zero explanation . i have no friends

parents aren't home most of the time

no siblings still at home

nobody really cares if i die except them and they have to being parents .

i have spent the last 4 years sitting at home alone . doing nothing at all .

what do i do here?

Is it possible to get a job under 18?

How many places do i need to apply to and what type?

i don't wanna get hopes up and waste my time if i just cant get one until im 18 .

i'm going to a youth group thing once a week, i don't think ill make friends though . all i have are unreliable cold people on facebook in which it doesnt make me feel anything good , only ever dissapointment to go on there .

never done any dating at all

college starts in fall .


i hate my life so much i want to die , i have been to a mental hopsital before for suicidal thoughts , came back home and things were the same .


i barely speak to humans every day , i literally go 10+ hours without speaking due to nobody being here to talk to .