Eating Disorder? Help!?

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I'm 14, 150cm and 41kg. I try not to eat outside set meal times and I feel so guilty when I do. I exercise the next day and if I ate something outside those set times I will exorcise more. I think I am depressed as I am always so sad and I hate myself at times. I cry at least twice everyday if I look in the mirror because I hate what I say. I hate my face, stomach, hair, height, thighs, skin and arms. I'm really hungry now but I do not want to eat as I will feel guilty and if I don't I will feel proud. My friend is constantly judging others weight and if she says someone is really skinny/looks anorexic I get so jelous. I don't know why I do this but it makes me feel better about my self. I feel like not eating gives me hope. If I'm really depressed/feel useless etc. I think about how I have something to feel good about. I feel if I'm skinnier it will make up for my face and I might get noticed.