How do I put my life back together?

[Kells]

I think I just broke up with my boyfriend of four years, he was everything in my life but he was emotionally abusive and controlling. I gave up all my friends for him, gave up my facebook, and pretty much devoted my entire life to him, so now that its all over, I just feel alone, lost, and depressed, and I dont know how to put my life back together again. My old friends and family don't feel the same because I haven't talked to them in years, and its so difficult for me to make new friends because I am just a shy, introverted person in general. I'm 19 and a freshman in college, and everyone says college is the greatest time of your life where you can make friends that last a lifetime and all these things.. but to be honest, I just feel so alone and lost. My classes aren't what I thought they would be, my relationship with my now ex-boyfriend was not what I had expected it to turn out to be, and my entire life just feels like its going by faster and faster, but I still cant figure out where it is going.

Sorry if this sounds depressing or anything.. I mean, to be honest I have a very good life, and I'm lucky to have all the opportunities I have. My parents are great and supportive of my education and my career, I'm going to one of the best colleges in the country... but something is still bringing me down, no matter how hard I try to be positive about everything.

But I mean.. will everything just heal in time? Or should I really be putting some sort of effort into repairing my life? Like therapy or something..

Anyways.. thank you so much for taking the time to read this, its very difficult for me to open up about my personal issues like this. I appreciate any help and advice.