We Never Met.. But I'm In Love With Him?

[bethany]

I'm STUCK. Me and this guy have known each other since middle school. Well we really didn't know each other, we just knew who we were. So,it all started out on Twitter. He Mentioned me, And of course I replied. Then he told me to check my DM (directmessages) and I did.. We were just talking about how we knew about eac hother, and jiggy stuff like that. So, since I knew who this guy was, I decided to give him my phone number. and he texted me. It was like our personalities fit exactly together. We were connected Emotionally and mentally. But there was a major problem. We weren't connected physically. ;/ & the stupid thing was that we lived only about 7 or 8 miles from each other. -_- We both made efforts to see eachother and it didn't work out. He was the sweetest guy on this planet. He was different from all other boyfriends I've ever had before. I've had my heart broken a couple of times, but when I saw his personality, I fell in love with it. We broke up in May after we couldn't take it anymore of seeing eachother. it was the most loving but stupid relationship i've ever had. He texts me every know and then but another problem is that he has a girlfriend. They've been going out since 2010 too. I guess I'm stupid for crying my self to sleep over a guy I never seen before. I don't want to tell anyone (notevenmybestfriends) how I feel because it just seems down right crazy. I even have a boyfriend. He somewhat treats me right. But he pisses me off. I had to break up with him because he was cheating. And he came running back. That primarily what most of my ex's do. They call me "Wifey Material" Well why on earth can't I be treated that way?!?! I'm just getting tired of falling for the wrong people. I tell ya, I've been in some fucked up relationships. But my ma always told me to never give up on love. Even though I just want to fall to my knees. So, there I am. Back to talking to God every night. At least he'll listen and not judge me for how stupid I look. Can someone PLEASE help me ?