What is wrong with me? What can I do to help myself?

[Nikki]

You r not crazy! You have met & married someone that is into possible porn and the like. I, too am bipolar like you. I raised my baby as single parent. Better that than for hubby to come back...with a STD. He sounds unstable. Do you REALLY REALLY love him? If not sure, keep walking! It doesn't sound like this will make a good life for your baby. That's the most important decision you need to make now...baby. What's good & what's bad will determine a sound successful life as an adult. Weird men? Plz no. Not ur fault his parents kicked him out, good sign NOT TO TAKE HIM BACK, ever! It takes many years to really know a man, even then they all have sex secrets. Hey, it's a fact.