I am 18 and have no friends and no life?

[Jack]

I currently live in the middle of the country side and feel isolated and alone, I don't feel I have any friends at all, I use to go to college and had some people I could relate to but now that I have left It seems near impossible to get to met them due to something coming up in their busy schedules.
I wouldn't say I was completely unbearable as a person, I don't dress or act strange in public.
At the start of school I had friends but as soon as I got to year 10 I made the awful mistake to lose friend ship with someone to hang out with another group of people which later turned out that I didn't fit in with them, so most of my lunch period was spend alone in a class just drawing away, constantly checking the door to see if anybody would see me alone.
I would always feel embarrassed walking to class as it was just me walking on my own, not me with about 5 other people talking about what to do over break and what to do with each other over the weekend.
school was hell for me like so many others in the world..
College on the other hand was good I made friends and was ok but then the year finished and so did my friendships, second year was exactly the same story.
So here I am typing this, 18 years old no friends and no girlfriend.
And the worst thing has to be Facebook I don't use it that often but using it today has made me write this.
seeing everyone at freshers parties and people conversing everyday, just makes me feel more and more apart from the world.
I wake up turn the tv and sit, play on the xbox and then just go to bed.
I have sometimes thought of ending my own life as I feel its not worth living if you don't have any friends to help you through tough times,
My dad constantly reminds me of when he was young and used to go on holidays with his mates and the fun they use to have and it makes me feel as though he is almost ashamed of me.
Well most of you wont read this, but If you can put up with my drivel please tell me what to do.

jack