Please help is there any websites for this?

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I have been self harming a lot, (my parents don't know) I have social anxiety disorder and I constantly fell depressed I have been seeing a ghost like figure who I see as my friend kind of thing, I have nightmares of death but they fell like good dreams. Is there any site that someone will listen and I can talk with, please don't recommend child line or something I don't like talking to professionals, or anything like that I'm not good at talking in real life and I want to find somebody who I can talk to rather than bottling it up I wish it could be somebody around my age or something please help.
I don't want to try facebook or twitter thanks.