How can i make friends?

[Michael Perez]

If people are sexually abusing you, you need to report it to the police immediately. They should be doing some serious jailtime, especially if they are causing you to have thoughts of suicide. Get on the internet and look up some gay support groups, there are tons of things like that all around the internet. I used to be an admin of a pretty large one on facebook until it got shut down when facebook remodeled itself. There is also probably groups around your town. Everybody there will welcome you in, they are just like you and know exactly what you are going through. They can not only help you through the hard time you are going through, but send you through some happy times too. I guarantee it will make your life better.

Ignore the bullies, these people bullying you are no better than you. In fact, if they get their kicks out of turturing another person they are no better than criminals. Don't listen to anything that they have to say to you, because they are garbage human beings and you shouldn't take their word to mean anything more than garbage. I can't stress that enough, bullies are immature subhuman trash.

You need to ask your friend to stop telling people things that you don't want them to know. Your sexual orientation is your own business, and not hers to spread as she pleases. It is causing you a lot of harm, and no real friend would do that to a friend. If she won't stop, then she is nothing but a bully herself. The key to getting on the path to making yourself feel better is cutting ties with those who want to hurt you, and surrounding yourself with people who actually care about you and respect your feelings.

On the topic of suicide. It's simple, don't do it. I know the feelings, I know the lonely nights alone, crying, you can't move, you don't know who to talk to, you don't think anybody cares, you feel hopeless for the future. I care, I don't know you and I care. If I found out that after reading this, you went ahead and did it anyways, I would probably be heartbroken for the rest of my life. I would feel like I failed. So think about that if you ever feel that way again. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And trust me, your problems right now are temporary. How much longer do you have left in school, 2, 3, 4 years? I won't sugar coat it, school is long. It's hard. But it is also the WORST time you will have in your life. I promise. I speak from experience here, it only gets better. College is better, the military is better, the job force is better. Everything you do after school is BETTER. Every day I think about how great life is, and how glad I am that I didn't end it when I was going through a tough time in school.

You did good coming here and asking for help.