What do you think, was I supposed to keep it to myself, am I really a freak, please answer I need your help?

[Madara]

I know it's hard for you, but First you are not a freak. And whoever says that is an hearthless bastard. Who can love is never a freak. No you shouln't kept it to yourself. Shes the freak for ignoring your love, shes the freak for making you feel like that, shes not worth you. It is not your fault, you got to understand that.
Don't be so hard on yourself. Life moves on, and so should you. And Perhaps you would meet another woman, who is alot prettier, smarter, cutier, and most importantly a woman who will love you.
What could help you is to join some kind of group to keep yourself occupied. New connections will be good for you. Find some friends. New friends replaces old friends. Trust me.

I hope i helped. Because english is not my first language.

Everything will be okay.