I lost my best guy friend and I think it's my fault?

[Holly]

First off, this is really REALLY long, so apologies for that! Sorry! Anyways..
So last year I met a boy from my school, and we instantly clicked, talking about everything and anything, small talk and light subjects like school and deeper things sometimes too. I'm generally pretty antisocial so I really didn't have any close friends then, and being so close to someone was so new to me. One night, we were telling each other secrets about each other, just for fun, and that all ended up in a little misunderstanding where I thought he liked me because I'm really gullible. He ended up explaining to me how it was some other girl he was talking about, and I told him who I liked too. We laughed it off and were so much closer.. We talked all the time, every night on facebook, and it was great. He stopped liking that girl and moved on to another, and went through crushes fairly quickly. I liked the same (different) guy, for maybe two years by that point. Anyways, one time I was asking him who he liked, because we always had known who the other one liked, and he wouldn't tell me.. I have no idea how I didn't even suspect.. All the people in my supposed group of friends were teasing me and teasing me about him, and I asked them to stop so many times. I was SO sure he didn't like me, because for some crazy reason I had this concept that if you knew your crush liked someone else, you immediately accept it and move on.. So one day I asked one if my friends to stop teasing me, again, and she told me to prove that we don't like each other by going iver to him and telling him that I didn't like him.. I was so confidant (and also probably pissed at my friend a bit) that I did it. My friends all stopped teasing me, but my guy friend slowly stopped talking to me, less and less every day. There isn't a day I don't regret it. I regret being so self assured, I regret being so stupid and not seeing how hurtful that must have been for him. I really don't know if he ever liked me, but either way it must have sucked for him, and I feel so bad. I did apologize right after school that day, but I guess I didn't really understand how much that sucked. Basically, I need some comfort, because I can't help feeling like it was all my fault, like everything bad in my life, and after our close friendship ended, I fell into a depression. It was all my fault. I wish I could stop feeling so guilty. If anyone has any suggestions, they would be greatly appreciated.


Thanks!

[Melanie Gleason]

okay he either really likes you and wanted to be something more, or is embarrased that you approached him like that, you basically cut him off and made your friendship awkward :/ sorry girl.. text him and apologize and tell him it was your friends that were pressuring you and youd like to be like ya were before hopefully it works im rooting for you heh