Should I go back to her?

[LoveLife]

The girl I am in love with wants me to come see her. We've had a few breakups and we always gravitate back to each other because our passion and genuine love for each other is amazing. She loves me and my family and we both believe that we are soulmates. I think of her as my best friend and the love of my life. I don't need any other girl.

We broke up after a huge fight around Thanksgiving because one of my friends was texting with me and she did not like it. This was really just a friend but it bothered her so much that we had a terrible fight and I felt like I wasn't welcome in our home anymore. I left because she was so miserable with me and I tried to make her see that I loved her and only her but it wasnt working.

She sent me hate texts and emails for 30 straight days and I only responded with normalcy. I wanted to go back to her every second but I couldn't take the negativity. Who wants to hear how bad they are in 10 paragraph texts every day?

Two days before New Years Day she started saying that she needed me in her life because she missed me. She said she needed to hear from me. It was the first positive thing I heard from her so I responded. We had a few great exchanges via email and my heart was exploding.

Then on New Years Eve she wrote "I'm checking out. Have a Happy New Year". I didn't know how to respond. Then I felt like I had to find her. I had to go and be with her. Like in the movies when that happens. It was happening for me right then.

I sent her our safe word at 10pm on New Years Eve. We have this thing where we use our word and it means "Stop everything you are doing and come kiss me". From 10pm till midnight I waited on my motorcycle for her response. I was going to drive to her and kiss her and tell her that I can't live without her.

Nothing. Midnight struck. Nothing. I went inside and cried myself to sleep. I turned on my email and set up a filter that would send anything that would come from her to the trash folder. I blocked all messages from her on my phone. I could not read anything from her because I was feeling suicidal and If I read anything about whoever she was with on New Years Eve I would have killed myself.

Two weeks went by and everyday I stared at that Trash folder link. I knew if I clicked it I would be in a world of stress. Then I had too much wine and clicked it. 3 days after I sent out our safe word, she responded. She said she loved me and she missed me and I was all she thinks about. After a few days of not knowing I was not seeing her email she wrote again and said I was the love of her life and that she didn't know why I wasn't responding. Then one day before I finally saw her emails she said "I will not write you again."

I read through all of them that night. I wrote her and told her how painful everything I see from her makes me and that I couldn't take it anymore. Since then we have started talking. She says she loves me and I know I love her. Her issues with me stem from girls I dated in the past randomly writing me to say they want to hook up. I told her I would change my phone number, emails, facebook account, and never talk to anyone again who would jeapordize our love. We are both attractive so we can be with just about anyone we want, but I can't function without her. I literally see her in everything. Flowers, Sunshine, water, colors, everything.

I'm not perfect. We have gone through a bunch of really terrible breakups but I really love her and I miss her so much. She wants me to come home to "talk" on Tuesday.

What would you do?

[Basia]

No, for as long until you will beyond a reasonable doubt identify why it did not work, before, before and before. Than you will make a conscious decision to fix this issue, each of you on your own. And if at that point she wants you and you love her you two will happy like no one you know.

[digimutt]

this girl is crazy and has lots of issues. you must have a few yourself to even consider going back to this nutcase. this is not love the relationship is not a healthy one. You two are feeding off each other's drama and issues and think that means you have a great love what you have is disfunction and it needs to come to an end

[southerngirl]

I have to agree with digimutt! If you tried three different times and deleted all girls from your life and she was still mad over just a text reaching out to you then yes, she is crazy!! Now if you were texting with girls yourself and like continuing relationships with other females and not giving those things up after three get back togethers with this girl then you do not really want a committed relationship! It just seems hard to believe that you did all of that and she was just negative. Seems like there is more to this story, maybe religious differences or differences in moral standards. Maybe you keeping in touch with othed girls or needing more than she has to offer you. Anyway, I say forget about it. Once trust is gone, it is almost impossible to get back. Tell her to move on and go out tonight with one of your friends and party!

[Ebook]

she writes she will not write you again and then she wants to "talk" with you on tuesday ?? you havent done anything wrong. she is the one who reacts like a friggin maniac, you took it to much to your heart, because you love her and it caused you A LOT of PAIIN. you tell her that but as i know woman, she will not mind about your feelings, because a man is not supposed to have feelings and if he does, his feelings dont matter or they are dirt. if she is not sorry and does not apologize to you, that means your love for her is futile, she loves to hurt you badly and that is all what she loves. by the way, when i say apology, i dont mean a bj. certainly i would not go to her home, like crawling back to her. its not like you cheated or stole. NO! she made the mistake and she is the one should come to your home and get right with you. if she is to arrognat for that, you are a handsome young man and there is plenty of girls that gladly would jump on you.
love makes young men often blind but you have to look out to not get under her feet.

[Rock Bottom]

When I finish a drink and throw the can away, I don't dig through the garbage later looking for that can in hopes there's another sip left. Same goes for women. NEVER press rewind on relationships, all you're doing is eroding your own sense of self-worth. Just listen to yourself man, you see her in everything? Do you also see a vagina when you look between your legs dude? Never sacrifice your dignity for a piece of tail.