I don't feel real anymore? please help?

[Niall]

Okay, first my name is Niall, i live in Ireland and i don't go to school im home schooled but i don't do much, my moms trying to get me in to a school but there all full. she found one for drop outs i drooped out in like 7th grade or 1st year you'l know wherever your from. im 14 i just turned 14. im not that good at math or spelling and i play xbox all day. i allso never sleep its 7:50 am when im typing this and i have not gone to sleep yet, its sunny outside and i hear birds i do this every night. my head hurts allot but i go to sleep when my mom wakes up i hear her alarm go off at around 8-9 am, she goes to bed at like 1-2 am sometimes 12 am, i stay up all night on my computer making websites and learning new stuff in editing buying stuff and loads more i go on Facebook allot to and mostly people i talk to are from USA and its like 6-8 hours different so when they sleep i sleep. i never go out i stay in the house all day. ive had a computer for about 5 years now and its rear if i don't go on it and if i don't im paying Xbox. i started playing grand theft auto when i was 4 years old. 10 years ago. my brother my half brother had it and he showed me he lived somewhere ells hes like 21 now. i watched the ring when i was 3 so im not to scared of anything. my head hurts allot and my hart beats fast and sometimes when i stand up it goes really fast and hurts and makes me feel like falling over and not real. i don't feel real anymore i only feel real on a Xbox or computer i only talk to people on it my mom keeps telling me to stop and change and shes getting me back to school but i don't care anymore. i feel im at the back of my head just looking out because i say stuff i would not normally and i feel weird all the time. i get scad sometimes and in the middle of a sentence i freeze and say to myself this is not real it does not feel real and i get dizzy and my hart goes faster. a few days ago i had to lay down on the floor for a bit because i felt sick from all this i feel sick now i sleep only 3-5 maybe 6 or 7 hours a night. i don't eat like any food at all i don't drink anything much i am to skinny and i feel sick all the time and my head hurts and i don't feel real. sometimes i feel why am i hear what is life whats it for why is it such a D*** sometimes. i never hurt myself like some people do , but a while ago i felt like killing people and stuff. but i don't really anymore because i don't feel im controlling myself or my mind im just watching someone ells through my eyes. i really want to get normal again and go to school have friends feel real go to the shop with them and buy stuff i want that, but now im just a lazy skinny guy with no friends who does not feel real anymore. please don't hate on me i just want to have a normal life and sorry for the mistakes. any answers will help. but i don't really want to go to a therapist or anything. so thanks for taking the time for reading this i would love your help and telling me what i should do like make a timetable for when i do stuff or something i dunno please help me someway. Thanks

P.S. i Ignore pain and hunger and thrust i just continue on what im doing but i feel it i just ignore it.

Thanks Again, Niall

[BLAKE]

Seems like you are sleep deprived.. You need more sleep... Try setting a set time for you to sleep.. I'm addicted to xbox.. But I try my hardest to do other stuff. But TBH you need way more sleep eat more too.. You're practically starving your brain... Eat and sleep.. It'll help a lot..

[Cody]

Your lifestyle is really unhealthy for you. There is a reason why people eat and sleep. You may not feel real because all you do is play xbox and stay on the computer all the time. Im assuming you just dont feel like yourself...and with a lifestyle like that your probably not feeling very satisfied with yourself. You need to start by motivating yourself to a healthier schedule and then sticking to that schedule. It seems like you dont have any motivation. You need to get yourself involved in something other than playing xbox all day. The type of lifestyle that you are living is why you are sick and you dont feel real because you mind needs sleep. You really need to have faith and help yourself through this. I know you may not think there is anything else to do, but you could at least talk to your mom about it. You need to change your habits, you have some bad habits. The more you start to help yourself the better it will get. You will start feeling better if you eat and sleep at least