What is this strange feeling and has anybody else had it?

[No Name]

Ok, so I have no idea what's 'wrong' with me. I'm sixteen, female and straight; I find boys attractive but can't seem to have the same emotional feelings that I've had for girls- teachers. It's hard to explain. The feelings I've had for the teachers aren't you typical love emotion but it's too strong to be anything less than that. It's not an infatuation because I have no sexual interest in them. This sounds crazy but I wanted them to feel sorry for me and help me through a difficult time. I'm not an attention seeker generally, but I don't know it's just weird these emotions. I've wanted something bad to happen to much- extreme stuff like rape and kidnap etc- just so they pay attention to me, hug me and help me through it.

This is now the 2nd time I've felt like this for a female teacher. First was a English teacher, the other a Zumba/Dance teacher. I have no sexual desire in them... Apart from wanting a hug.

My heart will beat when I'm around them, I'll go shy, I have butterflies and if they do speak to me, it generally lifts my mood for weeks. I'll re-run conversations that I've had with them and imagine situations of them caring for me in my head before I sleep.

My relationship with my mom is great, we are literally dead close. So, it's not as if I'm lacking a mother figure in my life.

What's 'wrong' with me? Has anyone else experience anything like this? Does this make me a lesbian? I have no sexual feelings for her though. The most i'd want is a hug or a kiss on the cheek.
I'm literally moping about because she deleted me of facebook..

[esmerelda]

It's perfectly normal. You could be bi, but odds are you are simply finding role models. These teachers are intelligent, adult women and they are probably the kind of woman you want to be. What you're feeling is mostly admiration. It's okay. There is nothing wrong with you. Hero-worship of a potential mentor is part of growing up and becoming your own person... which is why you have this admiration for women who are not your mom.

Don't worry about it. If you do turn out to be bi or lesbian, that's okay too.

She probably deleted you because (1) if it's a private FB account, it's probably for her family and friends, NOT her job, and (2) she may be afraid you've got a sexual crush and that can destroy her career. So don't cyber-stalk her.

As for not having much feeling for teenage boys... sweetie, I went through 4 years of high school and never met a single boy who was interesting enough to crush on. I'm bi, but I'm very, very picky.

And there's nothing wrong with being picky, either; I've never had an STI or a teenage pregnancy.

Follow your dreams.