SHOULD I SEE A PSYCHOLOGIST? I AM STRESSED :( VENTT?

[Paco]

I experience social anxiety and am constantly concerned with other people rejecting me. I've humiliated myself enough times in college and am just tired of it. I learned the hard way that being the nice guy and sensitive to other feelings will just lead to bullying/rejection.

So I withdrew from meeting new people and never initiate conversation with people I am not familiar with. When people communicate with me, I appear busy or very focused on whatever is at task/activity instead (homework, lecture, videogame), ask them one-sided questions only or just ignore them. I do want to return to my old self when I frequently hung out with my friends, made new friends and was active but I just can't anymore. I feel like such a burden and loser around my friends. And such a anxious weirdo around new people. So I don't hang out with any of my friends anymore with the intention of improve myself and not humiliating myself.

My Mom is a doctor and I know she is going through a rough time. She always tells me she'll be there for me and help me out but I usually put on a fake persona and smile when I'm with my Mom to make her happy. But tonight I basically told her I think I have a problem and should see a psychologist or have her prescribe me medication. She sounded super distressed on the phone today and I now realize that I should have never called her bc I was selfish and just made things even worse for her. I should have tried to spare her feelings by taking action myself. ****!!!

What should I do now?? I really want to apologize to my Mom but at the same time I am not happy with the direction my life is headed. I used to be sociable, active and happy but now I am a complete loner who has only one friend.

[LP7]

There is nothing wrong with your behaviour.Sure,you are stressed and need consoling.Your mum can help you with that.You don't need medication.Honestly,it is possibly your age(college).Many college students feel this way.Everyone is trying to be "accepted"and not being "themselves".Let it go for a while.Do some new things like tennis,squash,cycling.Something physical to expend energy that you would normally use on over analysing why do aren't good enough.This is not true.This is a global social issue like a lot of other problems we have in the world today.But you can do something for yourself.Take walks/cycle to your local shops,chat with the owners,farmers markets for fresh fruit.Know what I mean?Get out and away from the usually faculty meet ups.There are others like you who feel exactly the same but also think it is just them.Build up your self esteem with those hobbies,interests, new girl.A little time and slowly you will see a difference.I live this way, so I'm not just reading from a book.Be brave.You will be fine.