I hate my ex but i love him so much! I want him out of my head! (My story of being cheated on) I NEED HELP?

[Thomas]

Alright so im young first off..... Me and my ex were together for about 6 months! Our first month took place over the internet which is how we met. We were Crazy! about each other. We would talk every single day. we would skype every single day and it was just the best time of my life with him. He wanted to move out to where i was so he could experience it all in person and i said yes do it and was excited.

He moved out to where i was thinking he had the money to stay out here but he was mistaken and was homeless for 3 months doing the best to get on his feet but couldnt. He was getting so sick and tired of being out here (I lived in Vegas he lived in Philadelphia) and i tried everything i could to help him. I loved him unconditionally and i kept him going month after month. The reason he couldnt stay with me is because i live with my parents and they didnt like or trust him.

Around november he wanted to get pack to PA badly and did so. He barely scratched enough money to get back there and i was sad that he left but he needed to get off the streets and go take care of his mom. So he lived with his mom when he went back and i thought stuff would be better.... Turns out i was wrong.

The first month was okay. I was doing okay on my own but the thing is he had no internet over there so our skyping time was done and we werent able to msg over faceboko. all he had was a house phone that we werent able to talk much at all on because 3 other people were living with him and his mom in a VERY small appartment that is like 1 bedroom.

I was noticing him not calling me cute nicknames like before and he was getting really frustrated with me often. I had his facebook account info and i kept tabs on it for him while he was in pa. I also had his skype info connected in my ipod (keep that in mind) i didnt know it was even there till i found out the harsh way.

Okay so our first month was okay. The next month started and we both said we shall do this we will work and make this relationship stronger.
I started feeling lonely and unloved because he wouldnt talk cute to me anymore or even pleasure me over the phone like he used to. He always told me "Just go watch porn or something" I didnt like the responce at all but i lived with it.

about 2 weeks ago from today i asked him if we could take a break ya know? just to make us stronger but that didnt work at all and i think i ruined it all with those words. He said before i asked him tho that we should take a break so he already saw it not working out.

We went on break and RIGHT WHEN WE WENT ON BREAK HE GETS INTERNET BACK! his laptop didnt have a cam or skype but he had access to facebook again.

I check his facebook the day after we went on break and i see him msging 2 of his exes. telling one that he misses him and loves him alot and tells the other pretty much the same thing and even DIRTY TALKS HIM!.

I was furious. I called him as my heart was beating so loud and hard i could just feel it beating out of my chest. He tried to defend him self with im single and stuff. That pissed me off more.

He broke up with me calling me a stalker and a weirdo also telling me i was too over bearing and too jealous. I was crying my eyes out and was dead inside. I didnt know what to do.

around new years eve we agreed to take things slowly and work it out. We werent gonna talk to anyone we were sexually interested in and we wouldnt cheat or anything. Shame on me for falling for it....

I asked him out on new years eve and he said yes and promised to never ever leave me and that he wasnt ever gonna break my heart again. i was starting to trust him again.

He changed his faecbook password and i was relieved about it. So on saturday he was watching football and i was horny trying to get him in a mood. he wouldnt talk dirty and just told me to watch porn again. I was like fineee ill do so..... I went to sleep later and woke up sunday around 5:30 pm to msgs on my ipod (his skype) saying things like "ohh yeah cum for me baby" and "Mm let me lick that all up for you" ..... it was him and some random stranger. The stranger was on camera for him and he was talking dirty. I was pissed and hurt.

I called him and said wtf are u doing? he hung up and i told him on facebook we r done. and i broke up with him



Okay that is the story. Now every day since sunday i've been feeling heartbroken and angry, and just plain hurt. Idk what to do I WANNA TAKE THIS PAIN AWAY AS IN SUICIDE OR SOMETHING BUT IK THATS THE WRONG MOVE!

I hate crying over this loser and i need help now. I love him so much but i hate him so much more! I dont know how t ofeel or what to do

I've been cheated on. I've been lied to. He said he was done with me the first time we broke up. But idk why he cheated instead of just telling me we were done for good again ya know? instead of giving me another chance......


Please someone tell me what to do and if there are any songs that couldHELP

[Hello]

Lady, you need another boyfriend, or at least a friend with benefits. **** that other guy; obviously he's a douchebag who doesn't care about you after the curiosity is gone.

Being single is also fun. I was single, a long time ago, and I had a great time.

[BabeHart]

This belongs in Singles & Dating...

Your life is what you make it...you can choose to be happy and do things you enjoy, or you can spend time in situations that aren't pleasurable...your call...