I really need advice pls help me?

[I Love You Forrest]

Everyone has their flaws including me and I am trying to change. I wrote off my babies father after we had a huge fight and am wondering if I should rethink it. Here is our story..

I saw him around at a local library. His cousin tried talking to me but I took his number and never called him. then I started seeing him around all the time. He is attractive so couldn't help but notice him. I overheard some older guys talking to him saying they wanted a younger women to sleep with. he came up to me and started talking to me. Kind of felt like it was because of what they said and they were looking at me when they said it. I can't remember what he said but I do remember telling him I went to AA meeting at a specific place. Shortly later he started showing up where I was. He sat by me and asked if I talked to his cousin and I said no. He asked if I wanted to hang out at my house and I said yea. but changed my mind thinking it was a bad idea. I felt he just wanted to have sex. I could tell he was mad. Anyways we hung out another time at an Aa meeting and he started talking about prostituting women and selling drugs. That was another reason I avoided him. So I ran into him a couple times but avoided him which obviously pissed him off. however we ran into each other on a phone chat line. I was lonely haven't been with anyone in over a year so agreed to meet up with him. we hung out for the entire weekend and ended up hooking up a couple times but used protection. he was an asshole.. bossing me around and making passive aggressive comments. Saying I couldnt talk to his cousin anymore even after I told him I wasn't. The last time we had sex he told me to wait in bed for him and basically yelled asking if I was ready. Then afterwards made me wait outside the shower so he could take a shower first. I can't help but wonder if he somehow purposely got me pregnant which I highly doubt.. It just seems weird how I go pregnant using protection with him.
Anyways after that day I didn't hear from him. I didn't care either. Ran into him one day and he seemed happy to see me but I ignored him. then a couple months later I found out I was pregnant. I ran into him and told him. He was like it's not mine. SO I called him a scumbag and sat away from him. he came up to me and said Idk how this happened blah blah.. and that he never got anyone pregnant before (he is 36 I am 26). SO we said we'd keep in touch. I started running into him everywhere but avoided him. then shortly b4 I had my baby I was going through a lot and passed him and his friend on the opposite side of street. He was snickering an evil laugh. so I goggled him on Facebook for 1st time ever and found out he did have a kid and was joking around saying he was off to the sperm doner clinic. So I wrote him a mean letter saying
You know I am usually by myself and I mind my own business. I don't know what you could possibly be saying about me I don't need you, want you or think about you. And I recently did hear about you and I'm not dealing with all your gf and your nasty attitude for the next 18 years. blah blah.
I just snapped I was mad and meant what I said but now I feel I am cheating my son out of a dad. Should I reconcile? I really don't want to. when I signed my son up for insurance they said I had to put dad down so I did and that I had to file for child support papers which I did. what should I do? Is there anyway out of contacting him?
and I cant turn back time and don't regret my son. SO pls don't knock me I shouldn't of messed with him in first place..i know
o yeah and I haven't seen him since I wrote that letter and I was running into him almost everyday.
I doubt it was him but I did have someone peeking through my window at four am in the morning I called the police this was after I sent the letter. It could have been a stranger or a neighbor or an abusive ex I dated yrs ago but thought that was odd..
he is a drug dealer

[grandma]

Ok, well the full story was a bit long and not written very easily to read, but I think I kind of get the story. If I were you, I'd evaluate whether you think the man would be a threat to your child or not. If you think he could be a good dad, you should give him a chance, because regardless of whether you want to see him or not, it's only fair to your son. You can always work out arrangements that would mean you didn't have to be in a lot of direct contact with the father yourself (for example, my son sees his son on the weekends, but that is arranged through me and the mother being in contact, my son and her don't speak at all.)

Hope it works out for you and you make the right decision.