Why Does My Feel Worthless at 22years Old?

[KidkID Moe]

like i still live at home with my moms & im 22 i have no job.. & it feels like i dont know what to do in life...but i have a feeling what i think i want to do is Act but i remeber when i was around 15 i had wanted to go to school for Photography, then i wanted to be a carpenter, then actor (well extra cause im scared to be in front of people i felt) but yea then i'll be Motivated to do it because like when i see Rappers/Actors on stage like Drake, Big Sean, Lil Wayne, Bow wow, Denzel Washington like when i see him Giving a Raw Piece i get Goose bumps like wondering if i could really do that how he portrays his Character is like Unbelievably Crazy like if i could Perform in Radio City or at The Apollo in New York that would be mad Crazy to do... but then i'll start to Lack Motivation like i think what makes me lack is like when about me being infront of a class of just 10kids is kind've i'll get nervous because im not really use to being infront of people imean like i did some what acting like when iwas 13 i did a school for my church it felt cheesy a bit, because i had to use my Imagination like i had to pretend that i was sysops to be drinking, beer like u know how on those Commercials have 2 teens dare another teen to do drugs, but yea i had to pretend a Angle frozen everybody but me & he told me dont be stupid just tell them your too cool for it..so yea while growing up i was a shy person i never really wanted to do plays because it involved me to be in public & going out made me uncomfortable i was like that with baseball when i was on the team i felt lame i guess i had mild Social Anxiety, & that right there is a bad thing to have, that's why im on prozac & Clonapan i was just put on that about a month ago & i like it...but yea while growing up i wanted to do something dealing with the Entertainment Business, everything about from being on set to seein backstage just looks good to be doin if that makes sense, but its like other day when i went on This Web site called Henry Ford Community College for theater, i saw the Class & the stage & first thing i thought was Romeo & Juliet..lol...& i saw the seating Arrangements & i got Butterflies Quick like all those people but yea i want to do alot like Model on tv shows like Access Granted when they have the model come out in a outfit & say this jacket is only 30 dollars like i want to do that sponser for old navy, Kohl's u name it i'll do it if given the Opportunity...but yea like My Mood For it will Get Super happy i'll wake up everything thinkin like what would my life be like, i wud like to go to New York , L.A....New Jersey...Canada like im a person at times likes to Travel it comes with the Job though & I Live in Detroit Michigan.. its like soon as i Get to sign up on the site i get scared & have Second thoughts about if that is what i want to do...like i remeber a few a few years ago i was sittin up this little Trade school & kept saying gosh i want to do acting i want to see if i really liked it & i went, & bought some books on acting i bought a book called...The Power of the actor The Chubbuck technique...& i just got up & grabbed it from out my closet..& my eyes Lit up & i got a happy feeling as if i accomplished a goal....like at VMA's When i saw Lady Gaga perform that monologue i kept thinking to my self wow, that was cool i wish i could give that Monologue i some times wish there was a off & on switch for it...just to let u know i have i also have Bipolar & ADHD

[Monty]

I skimmed this- it looks like you're like many other American kids who're all over those 'cool' dudes who are performing 'effortlessly' on stage. Trust me, it takes a really twisted person or total prodigy to get on stage and perform like that- I make speeches for school and I just take it in stride, laughing with it.

But acting is a big pit that you have to be very prepared to be in. Your company screens all your facebook, twitter, social sites and you have to act how they want you to. If you included your education/degree it would help a lot. I think you need to find some small jobs right now (a motivator, I suppose. You'll feel better about yourself) and move on to something bigger and better that you enjoy.