What to do life problems?

[Eufemia]

So I lost my best friend we just grew apart and it hurts me. I know it was my fault all I ever did these last few days was be rude to her. Its just I have this bad thoughts about all of her past faults and I can get it off my mind. Sometimes I just thought that we shouldn't be best friends anymore there are times that I was starting to hate her. Anyway there are times that I miss the old times. I know I have to move on but its hard when she just sits adjacent to me and we belong to the same group of friends. I am tired of this feeling it feels like she doesn't care about me cause if she did she would have confronted me.
Another issue is my boyish habits that they always point out the way I walk,talk or even hold things. It feels like their criticizing/judging me. I am confused they always see the wrong things in me. Can't they just accept who I am?? just like how friends should. I mean even though I am boyish and I like boy games doesn't mean I am a lesbian. I am tired of people.I was bullied throughout my elementary days and now I am a 3rd yr high school and thinking about college tires everything in me.
I need help please what do I do?? I have no one to lean on no one cares. I am tired of everything

[Jonathan]

i was the same way with my old friend. me and him would fight but then we would get along. we were "best friends". he would root me on in person. he was like family. but then i hacked his facebook. he knew i was a hacker. well i saw that he was a backstabber. he would talk behind my back and say mean things about me. i hated him and got revenge but i kept going to his house. i knew his biggest secret and told a few people but then i saw him again and forgave him and felt bad because me and him hung out A LOT!! but all i can say is move on and try to forgive them and make them forgive you. and sorry for the life story lol. hope i helped!