Please help me with my situation. It's killing me. :(?

[Katiecat]

I know it's long but it is killing me. Please help me.. No one could help me ease the pain even my mother..


My ex-boyfriend of 1 year and I have fought on twitter last last night over something really, really stupid. I tweeted something and he claimed that it was him, so he began mentioning me on twitter calling me names, humiliating me below the belt. I was publicly disgraced. People have read that. He tweeted some personal things about me and him. So I talked to him on facebook. I told him that he went overboard. He said it was his intention. He called me a slut, pick up girl, said that I wasn't worth respecting blablabla. He even mentioned my deceased father. I'm so hurt and devastated because I've been with him for a whole year I didn't know that side of his personality. I know him.. his family are good people and I know how they treat their children. They are a decent people. I didn't expect that he could do such things.. I stopped talking to him because it's really not going anywhere. He wouldn't stop insulting me.

Last night, I just couldn't take it anymore. It hurts so much. People on twitter have read what he tweeted, it feels like I was undressed in public. I talked to his mom through facebook, I have a print screen of his tweets (he has deleted it) and showed it to his mom. She scolded my ex and made him call me. And this is what really teared me apart..

He said that it wasn't him. He told me many people knows his facebook and twitter account, and they must have accessed it. He logs on his twitter with his friends phones etc. He said that if it wasn't because I told his mom, he wouldn't have known it. He swears that it's really not him and he doesn't even know that it happened. He said that I know him enough he could never do that to people no matter how angry he is. True enough, that is how I know him. I feel so betrayed. I couldn't believe him. I don't know if he is telling the truth (because I never saw that kind of attitude w him before) or he's just finding a way out because it looks really impossible that he did not know that someone's using his twitter when while he was tweeting with me, he was tweeting with someone too. I am a really gullible person, and when he called me, I believed him and I forgave him. Because I can't bear the pain inside me even when I know I shouldn't trust him anymore. He made a public apology on me in twitter and after that, he didn't tweet anymore.

It's been a month since we broke up, and our break up is really peaceful. We even agreed to be friends after and he talks to me sometimes. I don't know what I should feel. I want to believe him, but I just can't. We were a perfect couple, always respecting each other. It just didn't work out for us. He treated me really nice and gentle, and with so much love. I was his first ever serious girlfriend that he introduced to his family. In my heart, I want to believe that he couldn't do such things. I still love him even after all that, and I'm still hoping for us. I know I'm stupid when I know it almost destroyed my life. On the other hand, I'm so angry with him. I want to fucking hit him until he confess that it was him. I don't know what to believe anymore.. I just want it to get out of my life. I want to forget him and move on. But I just can't! He's still the one that I want. I am stuck on the time when we were so perfect. He was so perfect for me.. he's beautiful for me. He treated me so nicely. He broke up with me btw, he said he wasn't that happy anymore and that I'm a distraction to his studies. My head hurts from thinking about it. I don't know.. please help me. It's killing me inside.. I don't want to believe it.. we're on the same college.

[Valerie]

Distance yourself from him slowly. Go out with your friends hang out delete him from Facebook and Twitter. Focus on your studies. He's an ex for a reason ex stands for exit let him exit your life he wasn't the one for you if he can just let go so easy love is done when he let go. Remember that. There's some one out there who will forever love and fight for you its not him.