I AM JUST broken..too confused ...was that a relation?i feel too depressed..?

[honey]

i was a studious child till my class 10,i topped my school.everyone talked high about me as i behaved really well to everone.my life got suddenly changed after creating my facebook account.i got a friendship with one of my friends brother after that,we were alike in our intrests and always debated and discussed social evils and politics online.ofcourse he impressed me and i felt a bit infactuated for the first time in my life.but i resisted myself from that.
after that i was sent from my home to a hostel for pursuing my studies,i got away from my parents mentally as well...i was too sad still i was good in my studies..but i dont know why i felt a sudden loneliness in my life,i cant imagine why did the thoughts of him struck me..i sat late nights working for others to get paid enough to get online..we talked nothing else but society...but even that could relieve me...on his birthday i did text him birthday wishes and he made a follow up..within two days we were really good friends and he told me about his gf.i dont know whether i felt some pain dep inside..but i soon made up my mind that he is a friend,i called him brother.and he told me he wants to see me as a sister.i was okay with that.
he told me all problems with his gf and they had intimacy amongst each other,he is an extrovert and she the queen of introverts...he was so angry about their chemistry.they fought frequently broke up a million times...i knew he loved her and i settled those fights to see him fine.i stood with him always..we talked till late nights...we never fought and i could get him fine whenever he was a little down....he told me his gf has never got him the way i got him...we were getting closer..
i always thought about him,ate only after he ate,slept only after he did...gave my 24 hours only for him....he was my everything...he told me one day he cant see me as a sistr anymore and that thought disturbs him a lot(he was too disturbed those days)i didnt say anything positive but never said anything negative...he used to text me kisses then...i didnt resist either...
i failed my exams and was taken back home..nobody could believe that i failed..even i lost all impressions about me...i decided to stop having any contact with him...i started studying again though i cried all nights.....72 days passed i couldnt suffer the pain,i called his gf(that relation went in between all this., i knew that)she told me he is too disturbed and once when she mentioned my name he said her humm!!i dont know her...
i felt too sad hearing that,i called him...though he was a bit stubbourn at the beginning...we became more closer than we were really too soon...till that we didnt meet that muj just once an year or so that too only in the presence of my friend,his brother.he arranged a meeting were we 3 he ,his gf and i was dere.he was insulting her they talked nothing we did....but soon we started meeting each other frequently....he who never takes any risks for me,took risks to see me....inbetween he broke with his gf nearly 10 times but rejoined with her with his own intrest al dis 10 times...he talk about other girls and when he saw me a bit jealous he said he was enjoying that...and he tells all this was just for that........but even then he solved his fi8 with his gf,was happy with her for 24 hours and then broke apart...
since last week he tells me that i got something wrong with my feelings,i love him..and so on..2 days back he messaged me stop demanding as if you are my gf....i am busy....i will text you if i get free.he is still in fi8 with his gf
i am sad...depressed confused.everyone hates me because my behaviour is too bad now...i gave up my studies,passions character everything for him..i feel he is getting away.....was i in love with him?was he in love with me?what went wrong?my boards are just 15 days away..i dont feel like studying...i cry loud alone...i am dying......what should i do?
SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME...............I WILL BE TOO GREATFUL........

[Danger]

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