I'm 14 with no friends and social life?

[lalastar]

While it doesn't really surprise me anymore, I might as well get other people's opinions. So, here goes. I am a high school freshman. I moved to my district in seventh grade (I used to live inner-city, I moved to the suburbs). I had friends for awhile I remember. Then, I remember sitting by myself at lunch for a whole trimester (seats were assigned). I was a bit weird, but I was way more outgoing. Eighth grade I had some friends in school and I wasn't as weird, but I did become shy. I think my depression started somewhere in that time period. Now, my "friends" and I go to the local high school. I still talk to them at breakfast,but not much else. I am not blaming it all on them though. I have social anxiety and I get paranoid around people, so I have problem going up to people to make friends. I am really shy at first, but that is not my personality. People admit that I make them feel awkward.

I literally just sit home all day every day. People on facebook talks about hanging out with their friends. People at my school talk about parties and going to the mall. I just sit at home writing and reading. Funny thing is is that I sit by myself at lunch. Well, not by myself, but by people I don't know. They're really nice, but older, and not people who seem interested in being my friend. Not that I blame them. The really funny thing is is that one of my friends sits in the same lunchroom as me, with her friends. I wasn't invited over, even though I remember trying to be friends with one of the other girls earlier in the year. So, I'm not intruding. She doesn't invite me over, so that's cool and all.

Everytime I try to make a friend we just don't connect. I even tried speaking to people at least once a day. I'm trying, but I feel it's too late. People already made out their friends. I also tried clubs, but I could not commit.Too cold to walk two miles and my mom didn't want me to do it. I stopped going to Spanish club in November. Oh and another hilarious thing is that even though one of my friends live in the same apartment complex as me, she rarely invites me to go anywhere. Sometimes, I want to go to the movies, not even a block from my apartment, but I have no one to with. My nephew (he's a year older than me) lives near, but sometimes he is overbearing (he has Adhd, so he can get real hyper) Any suggestions? This isn't all, but I didn't want to weigh you down.

Btw, I also have self-esteem issues that I am really trying to overcome. I try dressing better and taking better care of myself. I used to get called ugly a lot. I still do, but it's more of a cyber thing. When I say I'm paranoid, I mean I think everyone is always looking at me or judging me. But, sometimes people do look at me, for some reason. For example( of many), I was walking to my locker in the morning and these two big groups of people kinda stared at me (mostly boys). I remember asking my friend if I had something on my face. I did kind of change my hairstyle that day? Like literally, people would just sit there and look at me. Not so much in a mean way, just looking. Is that weird? Also, I hate my voice because it's squeaky and I kind of have a speech impediment, sometimes. I used to get made fun of for that too.
Didn't you read it? I already tried joining a club.
Lol, there were two new kids. I tried and failed. They already have more friends to me. But thanks and to the other girl that isn't true. People who are not so fortunate looking have friends. I seen it with my own eyes. When they're outgoing. I think you have a narrow viewpoint, and that's not cute. It's ignorant. Good day.

[cloveryer]

join a new club and meet new people
be yourself

[Lee]

Look for a new girl or guy, typically at schools there are new kids every month or so. Be friend with a new kid, they won't have any friends and you'll gain a new friend! Otherwise try to reconnect with some of your old friends! If that doesn't seem like a possibility, maybe you could join a sport? I know you said clubs didn't work, but maybe a sport would? You could also try talking to the guys and not the girls, sometimes girls are just plain mean! I'm a HS freshman too and I talk to guys almost the same if not more than I talk to the girls, just because there's no drama and they're nice to me and stuff. good luck!

[Hottest B!Sh]

I ain't reading all that too long bish! Ur probably ugly that's why. Ugly people don't get friends

[Jessica]

Do we know each other, because this is exactly what my freshman year was like. First off I bet your not ugly and High school can be tough for everyone. I just graduated high school in 2013and I had the same problems you are having. Just try to talk to different people, when you have to be in a group to do a homework project or something, just go up and ask one of the group members if you can join. Also a good club to join is yearbook, it helps you break out of your shell and be more aggressive, but also funny. You get to meet new peers, take their picture, ask for quotes. Don't worry your senior year will be the best. Also the guys were staring at you because you changed your hairstyle and they though it was cool. I had that same thing happen to me and now I am engaged to one of them. Everything will work out. What you need to do know is just concentrate in school and breaking out of your shell and what you are going to wear to your junior-senior prom, if you want to be noticed that is the best day to get noticed

[Burpie]

I haven't had any friends/a social life since I was 12 (I'm 15 now). It's nice to know I'm not alone :-D

[Jennifer]

Same. You get used to it, it's pretty awkward. But just find a new style that's not basic, everyone loves that.