How can people start liking me?

[★California★]

*I'm a 22 year old girl
Right now my heart started to beat fast like if I was running, and I just started crying out of the nowhere.
I haven't been working for a while now, and I'm stressed, because I've applied everywhere warehouses, agencies, malls, supermarkets, shoe stores, insurance offices, everywhere and I call them every week and they say they're not hiring or they're still interviewing people, and I have experience in most of the places. I feel like people don't like me.
I don't even have friends, not even my girl cousins like me, so I never have no one to hang out with.
I don't understand why they don't like me, I've always been a simple person, I'm always friendly to everyone, I never talk bad about anyone, I don't know what happened, my cousins and I were really close when we were younger, but after we (family) moved to another state, and then I started working at a radio station they changed with me, but why? I was always the same, when I was I came back to California, and I was excited because I wanted to hangout with all my cousins again, and they acted distant. And on holidays we all get together, and they talk to me and act kinda cool, like last years xmas I had won 8 tickets to go to six flags and I knew they liked going so I invited them, and I was going to use my car to take them, and they all agreed and we were going to go a day before New Years, then 2 days later 2 of them told me they were going to work, so I said its ok, because my other cousins were going "to go" then the other 3 didn't answer my txt msg when I texted them if they were ready for 6 flags the next day. And then last my other cousin that we were way closer before she said she couldn't go because she didn't have money, and I told her it was ok because I was paying gas and food, and she just started saying she just couldn't go.
I don't get it what's going on? They like my brother, they're always happy when they see him, he's 23, he's my best friend, but we live in different states so we can't hang out...
And I've tried to make friends, on my other jobs I had and I just end up getting bullied.
And on facebook, I have a lot of friends there, mostly guys and musicians, since I worked at radio stations I became sort of famous to some people, and I help them get jobs at construction and forklift jobs, and help them with immigration info... but hardly any girls.
And when girls from my city send me friend requests, I get so excited because I think they want to be my friend, but when I add them they start cussing at me and calling me names, I don't know why, I don't have naked pictures on facebook, or showing any skin at all, I just have face pictures.
I have a boyfriend but he usually works 7 days a week, so we hardly go out, and his cousins don't like me either.
I just don't know what to do anymore, why don't people like me?
How do people make friends?
I can't stop crying, I feel so lonely, my brother is the only person I talk to that is my friend, but right now he's working, he knows what I'm going thru he even pays me Netflix and cable and internet so I won't get bored or stressed but I'm just desperate I need help.
I can't even sleep anymore, I go jogging every morning for 2 hours, then I come home and do the insanity workout to see if it helps with my stress and it doesn't help!
I've already lost 20lbs in a month, I don't get hungry, I can't sleep, I cry a lot now.
And I applied for medical like a month ago so I can go to the doctors so they can help me, but I still haven't got qualified.
PLEASE HELP, I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING CRAZY.
I'm starting to stutter when I talk because I haven't had conversations with other ppl.for like over 4 years.
help me anyone
please
and sorry I wrote too much, but I can't figure out what to do anymore

[Eric S]

Nobody is going to read all that! The secret is to love yourself and to be yourself. That's the only way anyone will see the real you and know the real you and love the real you.

[Quietspoon869]

I read all that, and I'm sorry you're going thru this.

I have felt before as if the whole world was against me and it sucks real bad. But it can get better.

You seem like a cool person I'd like to have as a friend, you seem unique, friendly, nice, and in need of a break.

The first thing to do is relax and love yourself, the reality is that we came to this world alone and we are going to leave alone, but that doesn't mean you have to live alone, you will have people around you, but first you have to love yourself above anything and anyone else, I dont blame you for having this issues but I do want to help you go thru them.

I can relate for <i have a whole side of the family that don't like me because my beliefs (or lack thereof) but that doesn't keep me up at night and it shouldn't keep you, people who hate you think more about you than you think about them.

You can go even to a restaurant or a fast food place even if temporary and find a job, and you can visit social media to make friends, the important thing is not to let haters bother you.

Seek counseling it will do wonders for you, I hope I was able to help even a bit

[john]

You fell for the "Come to California!" trap like I did; I think SoCal is making a habit out of frauding and mobbing people from out of state. My jealous sibling told me to move out here knowing that its hard to integrate into their society during a recession. Atleast from a SoCal perspective, this state is not handling the recession very well. Its one of the places where you will see the effects of the recession socially; youll think you have everything in common with someone and next thing you know your being scapegoated, gaslighted, mobbed, etc. for the color of your skin or your class. Not every community is anti-cooperative and irrationally self interested; but I feel this particular community is very cursed by that and they protect this dirty secret in a very cult like manner. There was already alot of racial tension here from the 90's; the recession made it even worse by segregating California to the level where even family members are rejecting each other over class conciousness (I havent spoken to my extended family in 3 years; they also gave me alot of bad advice on purpose). Unfortunately, most people here make relationships only to feel good about themselves and get by (meaning they will turn against you if they feel they have to and not explain why).

Im not saying that there arent any "real" people in SoCal, im just saying that there is alot of pressure out there for people to be cold hearted (even though they pretend to be morally superior, thats just a fashion for them). Be happy that your being rejected from the SoCal job market because your just avoiding joining a gang that you cant leave. Go somewhere where people do not have to fraud and commit crimes to pay off a subprime mortgage loan; they should be alot nicer.