I am bored and I HATE my LIFE. What shall I do?

[ツCocoPopsツ=Smooth Criminal >]

Sorry it's long

I have nothing to do. as you know my laptop died and I live on that.
So, the home computer sucks. It didn't have internet before, now it does. But when something was wrong with it, everything had to be cleared. I mean EVERYTHING.

Now the frigging internet security my family put up is sh*t. It blocks EVERYTHING. I can only go on yahoo answers, twitter and wikipedia. No-one talks to me. EVERYONE hates me. for no effing reason. I can be lively, i have a good personality. Everyone in school hates me because of bullies in school, they turned everyone against me. best friend is not loyal. She ALWAYS makes plans with another friend, nearly every weekend they go to eachothers house. She doesn't want to go to thorpe park with me so she went with the other friend and rubbed it in my face and trying to make me jealous by texting me 'how awesome saw was' although i went on it b4.
Now my sister is off to a party as usual. I don't even think I can go to my friends birthday party because of a friggin barbeque. This happened before. 2 years ago for my friends birthday party she invited me to go ski-ing but I had to go to a wedding, so i was hated after that. It's not my fault. I don't make the decisions. Now what shall I do for next week?
I got angry on twitter so I called everyone a s s holes even my favourite band. For some reason they are so funny and enthusiastic to other fans but with me they are...boring and not bothered.
People like my friend more, even before they meet her. They don't like me straight away.
I know why people don't like me and only my friend. My friend is half Irish and blonde. That's why they like her. They don't like me because I am asian.
THAT IS THE FRIGGIN REASON.
I stand up for what I belive in, I stand up for what is right, I don't kiss up to the popular b*tches like evryone including my friend. That's why everyone turned against me. weird isn't it.
I have given up being fun, lively, funny since no-one cares. because all they care about is looks.

I thought everything stopped for a few months but it has come back.

Just now, my mum was yelling at me because I feel down and a little angry and she goes on about I thiknk I know it all and you should hear her SHE is the one who thinks SHE knows it all.

I have no talent
people call me ugly and fat

I never used to let these things get to me, but I have cracked. Now it all does get to me.

anyway. Thanks for reading this.

[Rajasekhar G]

To day existing culture is restless so also we.So many things to do but confused with priority list.Choice is the disastrous thing of language.Do you know what choice less awareness is.That is what is peace of mind

[nicebucket979]

Okay........ IGNORE the first answer. He's probably some forty-year old stull living with mom.

I can relate to you 100%- I don't follow crowds and trends, and I think popularity is just a shallow game.

First thing I'm going to say to you: Never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever give up. Ever. If you even knew a smidgen of the power your thoughts had, you'd never think a negative thought again. Popular people, schmopular people, it's just a free pass they ride on, getting everything easy not because of what's under their skin, but what's painted upon it. What happens when they graduate? Popularity dies, and so do the fake people they've created out of themselves. Good for you for not playing the game, because absolutely nobody wins.

Second thing I'm going to say to you: Good for you. Good for you for standing up for what you believe in, for believing in what is right. I wish I could tell you everything's going to be wonderful soon, but sometimes that's not the case- stories have happy endings, but only if we go out and look for them.

Third thing I'm going to say to you: When you say you have no talent, I don't believe that for a second- you seem like an extrordinary writer. And we all have the power to change the world.

Sometimes the view is better when you're on the outside looking in- I can relate to you because I'm not popular, or have any of the 'popular' qualities; I'm very different, actually, and I've learned to love that. Strange is just a different point of view.

The fourth thing I'm going to say to you? Things do get better. There's no wave without the undertoe first, and it takes rain and sunshine to make a rainbow.

You're a special, wonderful person, and there's absolutely nothing you can do about it.
:0)
xx Luna

[dinkotddr]

you are not alone .. there are actually people like us (although perhaps not a majority in this world/society, obviously.. ).
I've found that people who likes this "reality" and don't really like fantasies nor fictions (which are -again- in Majority on this planet) are usually lacking creativity & imaginations.
So don't bother too much with them.
J.K Rowling in her Harry Potter series even gave those kind of people its own term: "The Muggles".

so again, first thing you need to know is that you are *not* alone.
and then, you can search even deeper & deeper, and then even find new friends with same/similar traits, and/or somewhere you belong..

google these for starter: Maladaptive Daydreamers , Indigo , Starseeds , Lucid Dream, Astral Projection, Gnostic/gnosis, Esoteric/Mysticism, Virtual Reality.
good luck~