is my marriage a joke?

[Wine]

We met at a bar in 2004 where he saw me saying love at first sight, and asked for my phone number.
I gave it to him saying if you can memorize it then call and then he called and we started dating but he was never committed.we got engaged in Dec 2005 and married in Sept 2007 and had a baby in July 2008
Every time infatuated with blondes yet wanted a child desperately as no one was ready to date him because of his bad nature and ill treatment of women when they rejected him. Earlier before marriage he would hold hands in public, kiss in front of his friends but he would continue cheating too. And i have seen pictures of his various dates during our engagement period also.
But he had such a bad nature that every woman who was independent and famous rejected him after a short while due to his cocky nature.
Before marriage he was desperate to have a child, had already fixed a baby name even before our marriage
After marriage just in 2007 it self i saw pix of him sitting very closely with three blondes at a restaurant,all who wear scantily dressed,midriffs showing and later one of those blondes was sitting on his lap while he was shirtless and showing his wedding ring to the camera and another blonde was kissing him on his cheeks.He got himself pictured as well.
Same year at his work tour i saw him (in a video)that he was repeatedly kissing a brunette who was quite younger than him in age, on her cheeks,hanging out with her,eating lunch with her and that girl also jumped into his arms while he kissed her head and held her in his arms.
I have seen pictures in which he was seen with a blond girl, with whom he was cuddling from behind, had his arms on her chest and neck, kissing her head at an almost empty restaurant and was laughing and joking
He was also pictured intimately with his close friend,head tilted,touching her head,his hand on her waist ,in a parking lot of their workplace in the dark of 5 years (who is 7 years younger than him and with whom he used to sit beside at his sessions,talking to her,holding her hands,even gave a pic of her in a magazine who's guest editor was my husband)
Then in June last year thrashed her publicly on radio for being a **** and the 10 men he knows. she slept with. And who she must be sleeping with while he’s talking and was in a sexual affair with her other wise how did he know that she sleeps around when they were in different sections at their workplace?That same interview he mentioned me saying what he put me through while he stopped breathing after he overdosed on drugs 6 years ago,how much his in laws care for him.
In public and on twitter he always shows or maintains that he’s such a family guy, hes a family man through and through.like hes a stand up family man.
When I go to watch him perform he kisses me in the crowds only when he can get down from the ramp way and when lots of people are seeing and when he can't get down from the ramp way i am supposed to sit backstage.
He says family time is so important and so valuable and he needs time with family so he took break from work for 3 weeks, and writing such things’ mean who is his family and then he cheats??
And then on twitter he keeps saying such nice things about me like I am back on twitter(as people had said horrible things to me so I left)showing my photo with friends on twitter that I went to a Saturday night show
saying happy birthday to me on twitter when we live together, time needed to be with family after he took a break from work(everything on twitter)
Like spreading news that we are going to Bahamas for a family vacation when he took a break three weeks ago. On my birthday (11th Jan) but didn't mention that we are going on my birthday, instead wrote happy birthday to me on twitter when we live together!
We had to act in a documentary where we had to act out a few kissing scenes or scenes showing husband bonding with his family(real) but when the whole scene was shown everyone had one thing to comment that our chemistry looked contrived, boring fluff and unnatural.
He loves the daughter a lot.hes always playing with her,sitting with her,teaching her swimming,taking her out at zoos,helping her with her pre school studies,goes to pick her up from school when hes at home,eats with her,is always wearing her hair bands on his finger.our daughter is also very much close to him.she thinks of him as a her teddy bear,has even given him a chain saying i love you daddy.she always has to be in his arms and is very happy to be with him.
He has her name tattooed on his arm and my name as well but he shows her name proudly but left out mine.
BUT are WE meant to be for each other??
hes turning 32 this April and and i turned 30
on two occasions hes been mysteriously absent from his workplace.
Is the daughter a reason for him to stay because he cant take care of her alone due to his job(which has him on road most of the time))
doesn't he love me?
he doesn't come back to me,he jus

[Claire]

You asked this already and now you're using a diffent name. Troll...

[Pritam]

you are asking it so many times.
What if people say its not good and u should quit this relationship?
What if people say its ok, and u can patch things up?
Dont live by what people say. You should be strong from the core, then no external influence can unsettle u.

[__A_YAHOO_USER__]

Wow!! What an epic!! Your husband - simply put is a married man living a single life. He says he committed to family time ha ha ha you are kidding yourself - family and marriage is a 50/50 committment. And since he shares so much of his time with his child ha ha he is hiding behind that child. He is using your child to let out his fustrations by playing etc You haven't mentioned any quality time spent with you... only cover up stuff to make things look good to others and he is kidding you there too. He has an under laying alterior motive and has had this ever since he met you. And that pick up line he use on you, I bet he still uses it. Gees girl how much more proof do you want? You have it all there -- all your questions are already answered.
Great that you are still young, get out asap if I were you - you still have a life ahead of you. Don't waste your life here. I think he treats you worse than the girls he is playing with!!!