I think I'm obsessed with my friends w/ benefit!? D:?

[Yasmin]

My friends w/ benefit's name is John. So John and I became friends w/ benefits in 2012 when I was 13 and he was 14. We've never had sex, only oral sex. But the thing is I've always secretly liked John but never told him. I know there's no hope for us ever being in a relationship because I know for a fact he doesn't think I'm good enough for him. He also knows I've had other friends with benefits and he's always calling me a hoe about it but that was all in 2012, I don't have any other friends w/ benefit's besides John because I actually really, really like him, probably even in love with him. Aaand here's the part where you might think I'm insane: I stalk him. I don't follow him around or anything, I just cyber stalk him on twitter but I don't even have a twitter, I just look at his twitter and read all his tweets... I also look at all his comments on Instagram. Do you think I'm crazy? Also I look at the the girls pics that like/comment his pictures to see if they're prettier... /.\

[Maari Latoa]

You're gonna have to stop yourself.
You shouldn't have gotten involved as a FRIEND with benefits if you didn't just want to be his FRIEND.
And now you're getting yourself stuck on him, by stalking him.
I don't think you're crazy, it's pretty common, but I do have to tell you that it's not going to be easy getting yourself out of this mess.
The further you go, stalking him and loving him when you get nothing back from him (and don't be counting those sexual things, because there is no guy that would turn down sexual favors. It does not mean he likes you back the same way- or even at all.) He called you hoe, which means he doesn't have much respect for you. But if he does, he and you will both find out about it if you manage to do what I tell you to.
STOP. Everything that you are doing, stop it all. Stop being his friend with benefits. Tell him VERY SIMPLY that you think you may be getting more involved than you want to be, and have to stop before you're just wasting your energy and time. (and it's true. you will end up spending so much of yourself on him if you don't stop. and it will most likely not be worth it)
Stop stalking him. THIS is VERY HARD. Everytime you see something he posts, or are tempted, or even do click on his pages and this and that, you HAVE TO CONCIOUSLY STOP YOURSELF. No one else is going to do that for you and it's just going to hurt you.
It's HARD to stop, but the only reason you are "falling in love" with him is becase you have given yourself to him sexually and you're used to his company. But you SHOULD NOT SETTLE FOR LESS THAN YOU ARE WORTH. If he DOES NOT LIEK YOU BACK THE SAME WAY, IT'S NOT WORTH YOUR TIME.
Stop, before you get hurt real badly.