I miss him so much. He is the only thing holding me back from suicide anymore. what can I do when he is gone.?

[Sky]

Im 15 and my bf is 15, weve been dating for four months now. He lives in ireland and me the east coast of usa. Well were both emo and im very insecure and anti social. Being with him helps my depression and the cutting and the suicidal thoughts. He is my everything. He is my best friend but also the guy I love the most. So recently he got grounded and all we talk on is kik so he got his phone taken away. We couldnt talk for two weeks because im not allowed to have facebook or anything like that because of my mom. When he was gone depression hit hard again and things were back to pain. I missed him so much since we talked as much as we possibly could when he wasnt busy. Well when he came back we had two days and we had a great time and spend so much time together. Then he was back to being grounded ig . I made a fake fb to talk to him he was on saturday but he hasnt answerd me. My depression and thoughd are getting bad again im being torn apart waiting for him. What can I do? Pleze help

[George Simpson]

You can stop complaining, you're 15. You have your entire life ahead of you. What's the point in killing yourself because your parent's are a little over-protective and your boyfriend probably threw a little hissy fit and got his phone taken away from him so you can't talk to him. You're not being bullied, you're not getting your head shoved in lockers and down toilets and getting beaten up after school. You're just a 15 year old who's a little sad and shy, well congratualtions, you've hit puberty. Everyone at 15 thinks that everyone hates them, that the whole world is against them and most people can't get rid of it but you learn to live with it, becomes easier after a while. I was like that but then I found new friends, a new life, you should do the same, get out while you still can, just preferably WITH your life
don't kill yourself, that's stupid
I thought I was emo once, then I realised I was being melodramatic, you'll get over it, just jesus christ stop cutting yourself for fuck sake