How can I overcome my past and somehow change my inner beliefs?

[agreeablesleet246]

ok it all started when I was little,I was diagnosed with high functioning autism and ADHD.I spent a year in kindergrden and I didnt get the education I needed so teachers placed me in special ed classes UNTIL middle school where they decided I can be in regular classes again but with help on the side from the same special program. kids would make fun of me calling me special ed and retarded and slow, they would look at me and laugh at me especially on the bus so I never had many friends. I grew up with low self esteem and no confidence and even my parents were strict on me watching me closely, they were the ones that placed me in it all...ever since I got put into regular classes I tried to hide the fact that I was in special classes and that I have disabilities,I tried to be normal and still to this day I still try to hide it and be normal to fit in. some people still know about my past which gives me anxiety and I hope they never speak of it and Im happy that some dont know bout it at all. I am in community college now almost at the age of 20, I still try to cover up my past, my parents are still extremly strict giving me curfews and not letting me have much privacy like they stalk me on social media, I try my best not to act adhd or autistic..its trumitized me and made me into a bitter person where I try to compete and be better then people because Ive always been at the bottom. I have a really low functioning brother who leaves me embarssing episodes in public so ya
it really sucks cuz I feel like I m better then what I believe I am and can do anything I put my mind to cuz I am 'aware' but at the same time I just cant... my prents think I will fall into drugs and I feel like I just will do that... Im suffering

[Brent Oh]

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. . Separate congress government court.
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. . Separation of three functions is necessary for the better one nation.

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[Di]

My dear you sound pretty normal to me, in fact, above average if you ask me. Unfortunately, kids can be cruel no matter what the situation. I was a brain in school and there were times when I kept my mouth shut so people would not be intimidated, or worse yet, make fun of me as the "teachers pet." You see there are two sides to every coin and the grass is always greener on the other side. Just know honey that growing up can be painful for everyone, not just you.

I am 58 years old and have two children with autism. They are 14 and 15 and yes, I know what you mean about being embarrassed in public, If it helps, remember what one of my old friends from high school used to say, don't worry you'll never see those people again.

You are right my dear, you can do anything you set your mind to. As long as you believe it that is the only thing that matters. My mother was my cheerleader and used to always say that to me and I believed her and have proved over and over again that there is really nothing I cannot do once I set my mind to it.

Understand that the old saying "It's all in your head," is totally right on. Your whole world is all wrapped up in your individual perception. Everyone is walking around with their own perception (world) all in their head. For example, I have always believed that anything can happen at any time. I guess you could say I am idealistic, but those kinds of thoughts are normal for me. I just never bought into the idea that there are limitations. Self imposed limitations (or negative thinking) is just something I think is unproductive and a time waster.

Many times my dad would say that such and such could not be done and I proved him wrong time and time again. One time, while talking to my parents about issues with my latest project, my dad said, "Well, you know what they say; fools rush in where angels fear to tread." And I said, "Yeah, and sometimes they get something done." I thought my mom was going to fall out of her chair laughing.

Sweetie, if you are 22 and have the good head on your shoulders that I think you do, you are about out of the woods as far as the pain and agony of "growing up." The sky is the limit now. Just forget all that negative stuff that happened in the past because you cannot change the past and it is stifling your present and future. You've got your whole life ahead of you now, don't let some stupid kids from the past occupy your thoughts; you have got better things to do. Who gives a rats a@@ about whether they "knew you when," once you leave collage you may never see them again. Just concentrate on your studies and focus on your future; not your past.

And last, but not least, reach back and help your brother whenever you can. Your brother needs you because your parents simply do not understand what you two are going through and they never will. Understanding and empathy is a gift from the Holy Spirit, make sure you show mercy to your brother regardless of the circumstances; stick up for him and protect him at all times.

God Bless You, and Keep You, Now go forward and don't look back!

Di