Women I need serious help ( a little long)?

[Candyman]

Hey everyone a little background on me I'm a 25 year old guy , going to the police academy Monday. I'm a a very insecure self conscious guy. So I get very standoffish, and defensive easily. Ive been in love with a girl I've known my whole life (since 7th grade) for 2 years, but she's been in a relationship for 3 years! and we got into a huge argument Sunday night while we were drunk. She cried a lot and screamed cause I said she was an acquaintance and she said we were best friends. The argument escalated and it turned crazy direction when I asked if something else was bothering her which led to her telling me her dad use to hit her when he came home drunk. Also saying how I was given everything ,I never been through anything and she wasn't popular when we were younger. (All irrelevant stuff) I started crying because she was crying so much, and I told her about to mom passing when I was 18. It was an embarressing/emotional moment we had.

I talked to her Tuesday apologizing, and saying we are best friends and that I never seen her open up like that. She seemed to not care saying she was over it, she didn't care but for me to stop mentioning the night she wanted told me she wanted to kiss me (which happened in May) because it's embarrassing. I don't know if shes embarressed of me, or because shes in a relationship. Her relationship was on the rocks at that time. I didnt 't know I can get to her like that but I texted her Friday to hangout and make it up to her like I said I would but she said she was waitressing instead. I didn't text her tonight because I don't want to smother her. Here's my questions 1. seeing stuff with her and her boyfriend on twitter/Instagram/ Facebook kills me! How can I move on from her? 2. SHe won't admit it but did/does she have feelings for me? I sound like a mental case writing this but I want her so bad but I never felt good enough. Now I'm sitting here Saturday night thinking of her while shes with her bf. wish I could trade places with that guy.

[lizzie gorman]

First of all, drunks don't have meaningful conversations. Second of all, are you sure all this drama isn't because you're stressed because your life is changing on Monday? Thirdly, why do people allow twitter/instagram/facebook to rule their lives? Delete her, block her, you don't have time for this stuff anyway. Your life is moving on. She's made bad choices, you're making good ones. Keep busy, you'll get through this.

[ever]

Hello candy man!
First of all congratulations on your achievement and may you succeed in your future as well amen.
Man your young you got promising carrer you are talented n I'm sure you will find plenty girls more beautifull more young more loving n caring just for you in the future.. It's not need of the world I think you better not let your thoughts roam about so much for that girl.. She must b an opportunity earlier but now she isn't so just let go of her!
It's sas to read that ur mom has passed away... But sweety even if ur mom b here n if u share this story with her even then her words would b the same that am telling you... Move on my sweetheart life is full of opportunities n m sure god will bless you with the best from his bounties to you...
Have faith sweety n tread on achieve your goals and take care of yourself n yeah don't lose heart carry on searching n trust me soon you will find a perfect match for you... It's just a glance away!
Why should we opt for someone whose already hooked for y not have one whose made for only you who is solely yours n nones else!
May god bless you
Take care
N I pray you get over with this tension soon.
Good luck for your future plus
Have a brilliant start from Monday
Cheeeeeeersss mate!