I've been feeling depressed lately?

[FakeName]

Okay, I guess I'll just start with this: I've been feeling really awkward and depressed lately..

I just have a lot of pressure at school, I feel like I have no one to really talk to and no one that I can really tell how I feel to. I have some close friends but no best friend, I'm really introverted.

My class is really obnoxious and everyone there is really inappropriate and perverted, people cheat off me in tests, break my pencils, infact a few days ago someone stabbed my hand with a pencil and I had to remove it from my skin very painfully.

Before middle school, I was always getting high grades with no anxiety or whatever; I was just happy. Now my average from the first three marking periods went down from an 89 -> 86 and now it's a 78.

I wouldn't say I'm bullied, it's just that people can really offend me sometimes.. I don't really know how to describe it.

So I had started becoming a little more active online, not facebook and that crap, but communities where I didn't know anyone. I gained some really reliable friends I was really at comfort because everyone was so nice and I felt like I could trust these people. I told them my story and they just kept reassuring me, which never really helped :/

This all led to me being absent from school a lot, and everytime people mock me and keep telling me that I'll fail if I'm absent for like, 10-20 more days I think..?

I thought I was going to move in a bit. My dad told me I would be moving in a few weeks, but I asked him a few days ago and he just said that there's a lot of paperwork to be done so I've kind of been losing faith in that.

I'm not trying to make people feel bad for me, I just want advice :/ I looked a lot of posts like this and I've seen them be from like 6-8 years ago so i'm assuming they're all grown up and happy, but I feel like i'm trapped here..

I'm just a 7th grader, I know..it gets a looot harder as I grow up, and every week I have a group guidance thing, and my counsellors only reassure us students that it will not get better, and no i'm not joking.

I can not tell you how great it feels to talk like this. I haven't even posted this yet and I feel a little satisfied looking over this, finally expressing myself. (I never actually told my full story, just that people are jerks to my online friends.)

I even thought I was going to end this little rant/vent a few paragraphs ago but I just kept on going because there's that much more to this for me, so:

My grades.

I don't know, I just.. I can't focus at all. I'm always distracted on things and procrastinate my homework a lot, laying in bed, sometimes crying :[

I actually have a dance class and the fact that i'm socially awkward does not help at all. People laugh at me during solo tests and I just.. I can't

I loved my old school. Everything WAS PG unlike this hell i'm living now. Everyone was so nice, but I know I don't have people to hold my hand anymore. People I knew from there changed, and they just keep reminding me how I'm a horrible student now and they're even more of a jerk than new people I meet.

Pleas reply ASAP. I'm scared to go to school tomorrow and I want to sleep tonight knowing that someone in this world cares enough about me to make me feel a little better. Thank you for reading this!
To tell you the truth I'm crying a little right now >_<

[Casey]

i hate to tell you this but you are being bullied. I am really sorry people treat you like that. That is just not okay. Advise i would say would just be to focus on God and talk/pray to him a lot. He can and will help. i don't know how to make you feel better but i would give you a hug if i was with you right now:] i really hope things get better for you. Have you thought about transferring to a different school?(or was that what you were talking about with the moving thing) anyways i just really hope things get better for you. just remember that you are awesome and those bullies are just not thinking strait best wishes <3

[Darkphoenix1]

Oh dear.. *wipes away your tears* I know that school can be a lot **** at times, it's actually painful. But well what i did was not to give a thing about it, don't let those jerks let you down keep your cool, it would be great if you can move out to a better place, but you gotta admit that is a huge process :/

As much as i hate to say it, you need to keep on fighting til the end, don't show that you are baffled by the acts they do, it just makes them want to hurt you more And your grades, push all the negative stuff from your brain and tell yourself that you'd get out this hell hole if you study hard, those jerks are incredibly jealous of you, don't give in to them.

Learn a martial art, it could be Karate or anything, as in you are a good student you'd excel this too! ^^ Eat and sleep well, read some comics, keep hinting your dad about moving, learning a self defense technique can make you more confident and protected. And it's good that you are letting it all out, it acts as a cognitive behavioral therapy. Also listen to some good "fight" like songs : Chris Brown's "champion" and Maroon 5's "Daylight"

~PEACE~