I lost my ex what should I do?

[Lizzy]

Okay well I met him off of Facebook. Okay I know what you're thinking but I accidently "poked" him and then he sent me a poke back & friend request. c: (December 19, 2010) The next day we started talking. I realized I liked him but wasn't sure if he liked me back. He then started talking to me about a girl he liked and I helped him out the best I could. We both gave each other good advice. Then one night he texted me off of his friend's phone out of the blue & just like that we started dating February 11, 2011 11:48 p.m. ) We hit it off. We had so much in common it was unbelievable. We helped each other through everything. We talked everything through that was bothering us, and had the same opinions on the world. Eventually he became my everything and his sister gave him a promise ring to give to me. We vowed to be together no matter what friendship/relationship and we would be loyal/faithful etc. Well we started fighting a lot and we decided maybe it would be best to see other people, but still remain friends.We were together 1 year 7 months & 2 weeks. I started having feelings for my best friend. Although he smoked weed (which I was not into) So I didn't want to date him. He told our group of friends he was quitting and I started liking him a lot more. I started dating him Christmas 2012. No more than three days after I started feeling lonely. But I was willing to give him a chance. I found out he was smoking weed on our 4th month being together. He lied to me a lot and was never there for me. I told him I was done, but I stayed. I caught lying about other things, but I stayed. He chose his friends over me and smoking. Our 7th month I broke up with him for a few days but we got back together. Our 8th month I caught him again but I decided I would "cope" with it..and make exceptions. (I know it is hard for someone to quit something they do everyday) But then he started taking advantage of me, and "forgot" he made plans with me & hungout with his friends. And he started asking if he could smoke somedays & I said yes...even though I wasn't too happy about it I wanted him to be happy. But eventually I told him if he can't stop we can't be together. Surprisingly he stopped on our 9th month together. He was more irritable and everything... I didn't like it. But I didn't like him smoking either. The beginning of November my ex told me he missed "us" ... I didn't know what to say I did not reply for a few days. I eventually did though & I replied snappily. I told him he only missed me because he had noone and I did. (Keep in mind I was very upset during this time with my boyfriend) ...we made up and then I broke up with my boyfriend December 1, 2013. I then tried talking to my ex again like on a friend basis but then he "accidently" sent me a message that was flirty & it wasn't meant for me. We got into a huge fight it was over. My recent ex got a new girlfriend...and I don't even care about him anymore. I tried apologizing to my first ex December 28, 2013.. but he said he would have to think about talking to me again. Then I tried once more I sent him February 7, 2014 3 yellow roses (friendship) an apology letter, CD of "our" songs, a little note card of our memories, monster tabs and skittles. I asked if I could hear from him... and I haven't heard from him since the 28th of December...He deleted me off of our last "site" we had together and I just don't know how to get over him. I want to know why I feel nothing for my recent ex, but miss my first ex so much... Am I just lonely? Why didn't I tell my ex how I really felt whenever he told me he missed us? I still liked him..but I didn't want to be "that" girl to flirt with their ex behind her boyfriend's back.. Did I do all that I could to apologize to my first ex? What should I do now? What can I do to get over him? Should I keep trying? Or is this all that I could done...
I remember everything about my first ex.. his likes his dislikes what he told me... everything. But with my recent ex...I can't remember a damn thing. And with my recent ex we had like nothing in common but we made each other laugh a lot. That is why I think I stayed for so long (I was with him for 11 months) ...

[peachiepie]

It's easy to remember all the good things about anyone especially when you had so many bad things
to remember with someone else! Your first ex wasn't a pot head and I don't think you said if you rea;;y
ever met him in person or not, so lots of what ever this on line dating stuff is about was nothing but a
lot of words anyhow! Why don't you just go out with some of your gal pals and meet a nice normal new
guy face to face and have a conversation. All this cyber dating is really a bunch of crap and no way can
it ever measure up to the real thing. Did you guys ever meet,kiss,hold hands? Did your 1st ex come
over to your house and take you on dates? In other words was it really real? Is that why you remember
so much about him, cause you obviously love writing down all sorts of information, places,times,dates
and you had to actually go to these places with Mr. Pot Head, and after a few laughs he probably didn't
have that much to say anymore anyway! I think you were lonely and went out with a guy that made you laugh, but after awhile that grew pretty thin, and then you started feeling like you invested so much time
you were going to make it work, but he had to want it too.

Like I said there's tons of guys looking for girls and I don't mean just for one night stands or sex but for
a real relationship and you'll never meet your Mr.Right worrying about what went wrong with your ex!