Am I FTM transgendered!??! HELP PLEASE?

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So BEFORE I was a teenager,I liked guys,I wanted to marry a guy and take care of a guy.
I wanted to have a family with one and ya know..
But now I think I like girls,well for now anyway I'll probably change when I am grown..who knows.
Anyway,I think I like girls kinda,I sometimes imagine myself being a male and doing things with a girl..
And girl moans turn me on,not male moans..
I RP as a lot of guys off movies on FB and a few of my characters have girlfriends and they do things sometimes and I love it,it's like I wanna be the male I am roleplaying as and me doing things with the girl..
But something else,it's like I sometimes do not know my gender? I sometimes do not know if I am a boy or girl like really..
I'll have to stop and think sometimes and be like "am I a girl or boy?"
I do not think I WANNA be the other gender,like in this fantasy world in my head where I am with this guy I LOVE I guess I like being a girl but in real life it's like I hate every guy,and it's like I don't like being a girl because of how other girls act and it's like I don't wanna be apart of it..
I sometimes don't know if I even wanna be a guy either,it's so confusing!
I sometimes feel like I don't wanna be ANY gender,but when I was a kid I used to wanna be a male dog.
Maybe it's because I RP as guys a lot,but it's like I feel like a man now,not a girl? Could hormones do this? How? Thanks I will update more so please keep checking back! I have a lot more to say so please check back.
It's like I am bipolar about this too.
One min I'll be thinking I am transgendered then I'll be like
Oh it's okay I now feel like I like being a girl and wanna be with guys,then a few mins later that chances? I swear I am bipolar!! I swear I am!
Maybe it's because I RP too much,because in RP world it's like I wanna be a guy and do things with girls and be whatever to them,love,care a protect them..In the REAL world? I do not know if I am like this in the real world,I haven't really thought about it

[Maddeline]

Being transgendered is a difficult thing to deal with. You don't sound like someone who was born in the wrong body, you sound like someone who can't come to terms with their sexual identity. There is nothing wrong with liking men and women and imagining yourself doing different things. You sound young and confused. The operations to become a male are very painful and difficult. You need to know that its what you want before making a mistake that could alter you for life. Talk to other transgender people to understand how they felt when they discovered they were a little different from everyone else.

[Sarah]

To begin with, this issue has nothing and everything to do with gender. Confusing right?! I know. Really, you can change your gender at anytime, as gender is the culturally perceived idea of what a female or male is through action and social standing. I believe you mean that you don't know if you want to change your sex.
The reason why I really dislike the term "transgender" is because we people living in a predominately hetero-sexual world forget that it doesn't always mean wanting a sex operation. It means different things to different people within that group.

Now to, to answer your question. You are really young (not like prepubescent young, but still quite young), and you don't know what you want. That much is fact. The fact that you may get excited by women but sometimes see yourself with a man, is nothing abnormal or unnatural. The fact that you sometimes don't see yourself in one specific gender or another IS A GREAT THING!!!!!!! This means that you are realizing that NO ONE truly fits into in specific gender. It DOESN'T mean that you want a sex change. You are still young in finding the right sexuality for yourself; there are people far older than you who still don't know exactly where they fit into with all of that. Trust me; don't worry about the labels and the differences in gender or in sexuality. You don't need to pin yourself down with that stuff.
Sometimes I really like girls and can appreciate their beauty. Sometimes the idea of being with a girl doesn't seem right to me. Most of the time I can see myself with a guy, but always figured that if a girl came around that I could see myself with that that relationship would be something to consider. All I'm saying is: I'm older than you, and still don't try to figure out sexuality. Its an ever changing thing.

Also, you're a teenager; your whole life consists of changing your mind every three minutes. You aren't Bipolar just based off of this. I'm assuming you are exaggerating by saying that, but just thought I would add that.

[Lily R]

You sound really confused at the minute and it might be best to wait for your hormones to settle down a bit and see if these feelings persist. There is also a chance you might be gender fluid, genderless or gender neutral. I have a few friends like this. Gender fluid means you gender switches every so often and genderless and gender neutral I think are self-explanatory.