finish this sentence: honest to God...and you don't want/like me because...?

[just another girl]

I know what I feel and I know you probably wouldn't care, let alone, respond to my undying affection, if I told you. The truth and nothing,but the truth. This time I really want to know your side as why you don't want/like me even if it kills me inside and out. I could take it if you just told me and I swear I'll try to hold back the tears, so you won't see me cry. I just really want to know...why?!?
I would rather talk in person, but you, to be honest, are so freaking weird and I probably couldn't keep a straight face while talking to you. That and the fact that I'm really shy and you make me feel so uncomfortable in a nervous kind of way that is. Maybe if you call me...you have my number, but if not, just post it on here. I might regret this in the morning, but whatever...I just want to know why even if it kills me.
@ CJ that's ok. It doesn't really matter...I just wanted to know why someone might not like/want me.
@ Ken I don't answer them it's because I'm not an expert in that area, so yeah I think it's your internet connection that is killing you.

[Ken]

Because you're either too chicken to answer my questions, or my internet connection is killing me.