What would be the easiest way to end it all?

[428]

It is so hard to describe how I am feeling but I feel so empty and really lonely and it's not something that just comes and goes I've been feeling this way for a while now. I'm still only 16 but I cannot stand the pain no more I guess I have lost the will to live and I have thought about this long and hard but I've made up my mind.

My mother's friend seduced me and made me feel really special and she always used to buy me really expensive gifts and made me feel good about myself. I was always shy around girls but I gained so much confidence towards them and just oozing with confidence full stop basically & even though this woman was like 20+ years older I thought I loved her. However things started to change and to my horror she revealed that she was pregnant (despite saying she was on pill) and that it would be better if I kept my distance from her. I was scared and didn't know what to do and I was really hurt at the things she said and the way she was treating me ... she didn't want to speak to me and said I was too young to be a father. Eventually she changed her mind but only on the demands that nobody knows & on brief visits ....

Around 4 months ago she finally gave birth but the little girl died hours later from a heart defect and if that wasn't enough I received so many angry words from this woman claiming its all my fault. My heart has been torn to sheds 7 I can't describe how hurt I am.

I love my mum and sisters but I am hurting too much to carry on

[angel]

Okay calm the fuck down!!! You have been through alot but you can do this. I am here for you. I feel like I can connect to this. Do u wanna talk you can message me on Kik fb idc but dnt say something like this. You are way to important!!