help please why do i feel like this?

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ok well i'm not sure why i'm like this but I just feel so alone no one understands my family don't pay any attention to me I come home my little brother says hi and that's it when I try to spend time with my mom she's just like stop that or go away stop with the smart ass comments my dad don't even talk to me half the time he just watches baseball games maybe once in a blue moon he'll talk to me when im not trying to get they're attention i'm in my room listing to pierce the veil or sleeping with sirens my friends I cant even trust them one lied to a teacher saying I was spreading things about her to everyone else my boyfriend his mom got in trouble now he's in a different town he calls or texts me sometimes ever since he left I seem so sad I didn't feel bad when he was around I didn't feel so alone people used to call me names they would say i'm a fugly little bitch or no one likes you one time I got a text from some one I didn't even know they said why don't you shut your mouth instead of cutting you wrists why don't you cut your hair you buck tooth emo freak bye gorgeous then one day the guy I liked messaged me on facebook I was shocked some how he found out I liked him I didn't tell anyone he called me weird and fugly I told him shut up ass hole and blocked him ever since then I felt ugly and it don't help I have panic attacks ive had them at a baseball game in a store in school every night I think about those things the people said and it upsets me whats wrong with me

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I LOVE SLEEPING WITH SIRENS AND PIERCE THE VEIL, HIGH FIVE!

I don't know how old you are but I feel like you're pretty young, which sucks, because that means that's a longer time you have to wait until you turn 18. I'm 15 and seriously I feel really depressed and lonely too. My family doesn't understand either, sucks huh? But let me tell you something, there are billions of people alive and we ALL feel lonely and depressed at times, even the rich and famous people. So if there's billions of people that feel alone or lonely, doesn't that mean that there's billions of people that are feeling alone together?Like we're all feeling lonely together. You just gotta keep going and smile girl. There'll be lots of moments to come where I PROMISE you will feel joy, excitement, and happiness. Even if they are rare moments, I promise you just gotta wait. Do things like read REALLY good books that are popular among teens, get invested in good movies or tv shows and just keep listening to music that helps you get through the day. You'll make it through life, nobody gets out alive anyways! Make sure to tell yourself that. There are people out there who are genuinely nice and DO care, one day you might even find someone like that. Keep your head up baby girl

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