What is wrong with me? What can I do to help myself?

[likely suspect]

I dont really know where to begin...
I have bi-polar disorder, type 2 (which means I have more issues with depression than the mania side). I met a guy online about 10 years ago in the USA (im from australia). We never met in person, but we started a relationship back then. After about 9 months, he just disappeared one day. He just up and left. We went from talking every day for hours to absolutely nothing. I spoke to his mum and she told me he had left and she didnt know where he was. 6 weeks later, I was venting to a friend, who then confessed his feelings for me, then asking me out. I agreed. Just 2 days later my first boyfriend called me saying he was 'back' and acted like nothing had happened. I straight away told him what had happened and that I had moved on, but I was still in love with him and wanted to be with him so I was going to break up with the second guy to be with him. He seemed to accept this and we hung up as it was early in the morning due to the time differences. I broke up with the second guy, explaining to him what had happened, and when I went to talk to the first guy, he had changed his mind.....
over the years I kept in touch with the first guy, talking online, things like that.
This year, in Feb, he asked me to marry him. I said yes. I met him in June this year and we married in July.
The night before we married, we had an argument. When I first got to america, he was in hospital and they werent sure if it was cancer or not (it turned out to be cat scratch fever). I stayed with him for the first 2 weeks of my holiday, cleaning his shorts of the shit stains that he had made in his fevers and basically looking after him. One day, while he was asleep, I had borrowed his laptop to check my facebook. Forgetting it wasnt mine, i just logged on and didnt realise that it wasnt mine until I found out some disturbing things. One of the girls in his profile had messaged him and I saw that the previous converation with them was his asking them for sex.
I confronted him about this at the time and he said it was just him joking with his friends.... it took a lot of convincing but I eventually believed him.
Anyway, the argument the night before we were to get married was because of this and because he was refusing to sleep with me when I wanted sex, but if he wanted sex, it was expected. Also that he not once ever held me while we slept, but he requested that I hold him.
We still got married and nothing else really happened from then til I left the USA two weeks later.
When I got back to Australia, I was checking his FB and saw that he was still asking girls for sex, and even asked some for naked photos.... this obviously started an argument.. in fact many.
Then, when things were going good again, someone hacked his account and changed our FB status to single. long story short, he believes it was me (which it wasnt) and Im beginning to think it was him in some sick way to try and break us up.
he keeps on bringing up that it was me, which upsets me every time and I adamantly deny it was me each time also. he just doesnt believe me, and calls me a nut (because of my bipolar) and other mean things, which ive told him hurt.

Today, he accused me again, which started an argument. Divorce was brought up, and I said if hes serious, to send me the paper work. He then deleted me from Facebook and I tried to call his phone. He had switched off his mobile, so I tried his home phone. He lives with his parents and his mum answered and i asked for him and he pretty much hung up on me. So, I kept on calling (which in hind sight i know was wrong, but still). I eventually called his dads cell phone, as he is the security guard at the hotel they live in. I couldnt hear what he was saying so i called back a few times, but still couldnt hear him. I then tried the room number again and his mum answered yelling at me that his dad had kicked him out and told him to leave.
I know it was my fault that he got kicked out, but it wasnt my intention for that to happen. I know it wasnt justified in any way, but at the same time, I feel i was the only one trying to work things out, and he was being a child by not answering and not willing to talk to me.

Is there anyone who can help me figure out what is wrong with me? I know im not crazy, Im pregnant, not nuts!

[AKHIL]

Try convert ur question to a small one...otherwise nobody will ans ur question...everybody is bussy with thier work if they get a small free time they will ans only small question or easliy understand one...ok...just try..

[Nikki]

You r not crazy! You have met & married someone that is into possible porn and the like. I, too am bipolar like you. I raised my baby as single parent. Better that than for hubby to come back...with a STD. He sounds unstable. Do you REALLY REALLY love him? If not sure, keep walking! It doesn't sound like this will make a good life for your baby. That's the most important decision you need to make now...baby. What's good & what's bad will determine a sound successful life as an adult. Weird men? Plz no. Not ur fault his parents kicked him out, good sign NOT TO TAKE HIM BACK, ever! It takes many years to really know a man, even then they all have sex secrets. Hey, it's a fact.