help me? if u dont mind reading long questions? :(?

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told my class which is only 7 people i was feeling sad and i shouldnt live on the earth my friend Gabe said that i shouldnt do it cause Eric would miss me. eric is not my bf but keeps asking me out. Eric tells me that my crush whos name is Terrence doesnt like me at all and Eric can talk about his ex Ciera all he wants but i cant talk about Terrence. I never talk to Terrence anymore. I dont talk to terrence anymore cause i dont have contact with him anymore, lost it cause he blocked me on facebook and i got blocked again. i dont have Terrences phone number or email anymore, he got a new phone. Terrence had a crush on me for 2 months when i was a freshman then a few months later i started to like Terrence, Terrence avoided me sometimes and wenver i asked to hang with him in the summer he would avoid me. Eric has a adopted brother Zeke and Zeke and Terrence hang out and talk alot and Terrence and Eric used to be friends. Zeke also liked me before Terrence. Terrence is kindof a player now he wasnt last year but we had a friendship sorta. Eric is pressuring me to go out with him and the only time i see terrence is lunch, but Terrence sits with a bunch of girls so i cant talk to him cuz im afraid they will get mad. Sometimes if i run into terrence he will say hi but he wont smile. He will walk with zeke at lunch and sometimes they will walk past my group of friends when im not sitting with Eric. I miss terrence, and im kinda worried that Gabe told Terrence that i was thinking about hurting myself. Terrence and Gabe never really talk though so its weird


Also last week It was my bday and I asked Terrence if he wanted a oreo he said he was lactose and tolerant i was like ok. But then Eric told me the same day he got a milk and i never saw him with a milk. on monday after my birthday he gave my friend Brian a milk and asked him to give it to my friend Roy that sits at our table Brian said it was from Terrence. And Roy was sitting right next to me! Why does Terrence do that does he want me to like him or something?

Also Terrence invited me to a co curricular 2 weeks ago i went he didnt talk to me he talked to all the other girls in there and i was sad cause i thought he wanted to be my friend again. He sat by the friend he went to prom with last year and shes nice and everything but yet he flirts with this other girls too. When the co curricular was over he went to hang out with these 2 girls and when they left he came by me and started dancing but didnt say hi or anything. or asked me if i liked it. And the cookie thing, on my birthday he blocked me again for sending him 1 message about going to the co curricular, and I was unblocked before.

Yesterday which was thursday i told my friend Gabe i was going thorugh a tough time and i wanted to hurt myself and i also told the class. At the end of the day i see terrence and Gabe talking. Wtf?


P.S. I dont like eric, at all. He is too obnoxious not my type AT all. He stalked his ex gf too and he stalks me sometimes. And he tries to get me to hate Terrence whenever i say 1 thing about Terrence. What do i do with Eric and Terrence? should i confront Terrence even though eric tells me not to or what? Warning though Zeke might get mad at me and zekes sister and her friends by talking to terrence. My dad says who the **** cares about Eric he doesnt own you.

And i want to go to this co curricular but i dont want to feel so awkward ya know?