Does this mean I don't even like him anymore?

[Yakiniku]

I started going out with this 17 year old guy and he's japanese. He came to canada this summer and I met him in a summer program. Im japanese as well but spent my whole life in canada and my japanese isn't the best but I can still talk quite fluently. He caught my eye because he was extremely good looking and my friend introduced him to me. I kept flirting with him and he asked me out one day, he told me he really liked me but unfortunately I'm going back to japan for 1 year by next week.

he said he really wanted to do it and i agreed because I couldn't bear the idea of the other girls at school throwing themselves at him. i felt like i had to mark him as mine before i left or the girls would be all over him.

once our friends found out we plan to be bf and gf I get awkward with these things and I find it embarrassing. when we hung out with groups of friends I didn't feel comfortable anymore talking to him in front of our friends. I also felt like i accomplished in making this super hot guy fall for me. and that I'm done with him now but I liked him a little so i ignored that feeling I'm bored with him.

now that I'm in japan we Facebook and Skype often. the first week was nice but after that I got bored of our conversations. and i tried to tell him that but it was hard to tell him how i felt in japanese and he mistook it that i wanted to breakup already. so he was all like "its been a short while but thanks for being with me" and what not that scared me so much and i felt like crying and I had to somehow explain to him in english but i don't think he still understood fully what I meant. His english is horrible. btw

I thought to myself that I must like him a lot that I felt so upset when he broke up with me for a second. anyways its been a month now and him messaging me is getting annoying >< i feel horrible
like every morning the moment I'm online he's like "good morning" and he knows I hate video chatting on Skype but he keeps calling me. and even when he compliments by saying I'm cute beautiful and such. It gets so repetitive and embarrassing. I even told him one time Im considering modelling but it was just a thought and then he wouldn't stop talking about it and telling his friends and begging me to do it so he can brag to his friends his gf is a model -__- he was half joking there i think.

i find our conversations boring occasionally. and he constantly says i love you or I like youu <3 and I'm shy and not the type to say stuff like that so easily even to my boyfriend. and he's like ":((( why won't you say stuff like that to me??" and I feel like I can't say it because I'm shy or do i really not have enough feelings for him to say that?

He's my first boyfriend ever (well my second but the 1st lasted 1 week)
He is very nice and sweet and handsome but I feel like I can't have an intelligent conversation with him. and I feel like he's too lovey dovey and also right after I found out he liked me and we started going out. I felt like I finished a test and I started to eye other guys again TT__TT I SUCK but I don't know D: i mean guys and girls still notice other good looking people even when they are dating someone right?

and he has been extremely jealous of every single thing I do. when i was still in canada we all went out for sushi and i had silly conversations with his friend about the all you can eat sushi or whatever and he got jealous over that -_- that i talked to another guy too much. and when I said "good luck in grade 12!" to this guy who confessed to me he liked me my boyfriend would be all like "WHAT DID YOU SAY TO HIM???"

in japan I started teaching high school kids english and (I'm 16 btw lol ) just an assistant teacher. I told him about it and he would tell me like don't do anything even if you see a good looking guy. a guy friend wants to hang out during winter in japan and of course there would be lots others with us. but my boyfriend isn't happy with me hanging out with them because the majority of them are boys.

I have occasionally thought if i should break up with him. but that thought kills me because he likes me a lot and he's been quite sweet. and we've made plans for him to come to japan and during the winter so we can hang out and the idea of that not happening after breaking up upsets me

wow....I wrote so much no one has to answer this -__- I guess I needed to type it up to think about how I feel.

[eharrah1]

You honestly sound like he is more of a possession than anything else.