EXTREME jealousy problem with my boyfriend. Help me stop?

[Katie]

Okay so background: My boyfriend and I are twenty. I go to school in Boston but he goes to school in Minneapolis. I am taking this semester off due to health reasons and I'm living with my parents about an hour away from the city. I plan to go back to school in January (in Boston), but in the meantime I'm working and living with my parents. So whilst he is at school and doing all these fun college things and making a ton of friends and always going out, I am at home. With my parents and my dog. Mostly reading sad autobiographies and playing video games. Cool Katie. I have other friends but they all live in Minneapolis now and since it's so far away, when I spend the gas money to go there, I usually only have time to see my boyfriend. So the fact that I'm not in school and don't have friends like he does makes me so jealous I often cry, but that's not even the worst part.

I've gained weight since we started dating, and I'm SO insecure about the way I look. I feel so ugly all the time. So that's not a problem with him; it's a problem with me. So I'm wicked insecure, clearly. He has all these friends that are girls and they're all really cool and pretty and I get SO jealous. I had to hide him on my fb newsfeed because when I look at his profile and all the girls that he's in pics with and stuff I cry because I'm so jealous!

So he is doing nothing wrong. He's making friends, having a good time, doing what any normal kid should do. But for SOME reason, I am so jealous of him and those girls that it makes me have panic attacks sometimes. I like him a lot, so I do enjoy being with him, but sometimes I feel like I am so messed up in this way that I shouldn't even be dating him.

I am very close to breaking up with him, but I feel bad because it's not his fault at all. I'm jealous of him doing completely normal things, which is so ****** up. Has anyone else been in this situation? Should I just break it off and work on my self esteem?

I feel so bad being jealous of something that I have no right to be jealous about. I'm being such a *****. And just so you know, I hide most of this jealousy from him because it's so embarrassing. If I told him, I feel like I would be that annoying controlling girlfriend that is way too psycho. I refuse to stop him from doing any of the things I'm jealous of, so that's kind of a road block. Help meeeeeeeeeeee.

And omg earlier today I was chilling in his room on his laptop just like browsing internet or whatever, and I had a huge urge to like, check his email and his facebook messages and stuff. I didn't, but I wanted to really badly. Ah that is so rude and mean and screwed up. I hate myself for thinking these things. I feel so bad for him. He doesn't deserve this.
And lol at the kid that focused on the weight business. It's not like I'm not trying to get in shape again...I have bipolar disorder (maybe that explains a few things) and I had to take a break from my medication for that due to my health problems. My depression consists of a lot of different symptoms, but overeating is a big one. I'm back on meds and not laying in bed all the time and stuff so I'm sure the weight will drop soon enough. I gained 13 pounds and have so far dropped three. Yay.

[m♡riss♡]

You need to get a grip, work on your self-esteem because your jealousy and insecurity will push him away.

[Gulsheen]

U overreacting on this situation give yourself a little time all will get well soon don't think of spying on him or breakup love doesn't knock your door again and again and that too generous true one as he is sounding your bf tc babes good luck hope u recover soon n become dazzling with your old body shape.

[?]

You need to break up. Not because your boyfriend is having fun and your not but because you are going to different colleges. It WILL happen. Stop believing your stupid female brain. You guys arent 'that one couple' that gets through it all. That much is clear.

About your weight, I have no sympathy. I have gained weight before during the winter. No one noticed because it was winter so everyone had jackets on and shit. I gained so much weight I couldnt see my dick if I was standing straight up. Once it started getting warmer out I figured I should get back in shape. I was the old me again in 2-3 weeks.

Quit being a pussy. Quit being lazy. Quit complaining. Do something about it. Do you have any idea how easy it is stay in shape? It is natural instinct. You are going AGAINST nature by being fat and lazy.

[Black Heart]

Well, you could make new friends Boston, so you don't feel alone.
He doesn't mind your weight issues so you shouldn't really think about that either. If you still feel insecure, go jogging or hit the gym to get back in shape, so you'd feel more confident.
It's okay to be jealous in that sort of a situation where he's hanging out with pretty girls, but I think you're being over jealous. So, I say you talk to him about this last issue and maybe he could, you know, just help you to not be so insecure.
It's really good, you didn't go around checking in mails and everything.
If you really think, the situation's not going to get any better, you should break up with him.

[Phinehas]

Instead of complaining over gaining weight and playing videogames why dont you use the free time to work out.Do crunches or go out for a jog or join a gym,That way you can make new friends too.And as far as the relationship goes please dont break up with him.Its not his fault.This is just a bad time,Dont worry youll get busy when school starts and forget all about it but do work out because if you get outta shape its pretty hard to get back and ull just become the friendly fat girl..Hope it works out =)