Why do i feel so unwanted and disliked?

[Beth Crawshaw]

My life was simple until i started school i found it very difficult with social,teachers thought i had autism,i had many misunderstandings and i felt like i was being punished for it and i never understood why. As i got older into high school i made friends,then i got put into extra English and maths classes because i struggle with academics improved as i got older i got picked on a little bit and on facebook people thought my statuses are disturbing and other things i never saw it that way. I lost friends ever since i got into alternative fashion,the music,people at my church disrespected me broke my heart so i never go cause i get dirty looks and ignored.I feel like people hate me i never go outside,answer the door or answer the phone. Only time i leave the house is when i'm going to college or out with my family. I feel like my cousins and other relatives don't like me because once i wrote a status and my cousin felt it was disturbing and they make me feel like they like my older sister more cause i think she has a more perfect life than me shes sociable,shes engaged and she doesn't have problems like me. I felt like her fiance hates me although we get along its just he sometimes ignores me and hurt my feelings when i noticed he deleted me off Facebook. I don't understand what is wrong with me and i'm getting tired of people reading my messages and ignoring me. I'm sick of feeling like this and i sometimes want to commit suicide i'm not calling suicide line and i know my parents love me very much. I just always felt my sister is better than me and felt like people like her more than me. I need someone to talk to what is wrong with me?

[Cat]

What kind of statuses did you make? If you say stuff like killing people or something i can kinda understand why they think its disturbing. But it sounds like you need a new group of friends who understand you better and share the same interests. You don't have to change your style or the music you like. Just be nice to people and talk to everyone and be yourself. People might just stereotype you on the way you dress and your music, you have to let them get to know you. And your sisters fiance deleted you on facebook? you should tell your sister and confront him about that and ask him whats his problem with you.

[Mc Fly]

There is nothing wrong with you, you are just different and BTW, you have the balls to be different instead of just pretending to be like everyone else. Thats a good thing, so dont worry about what other people think about you. If you base your self worth on what other people think you will be screwed. If they dont get you then fvck em, its not about them, its about you.
" No one can make you feel inferior without your consent"- William Shakespere

[Meh]

It's OK to be different. I've been struggling with being who I really am. Honestly, you'd rather be yourself than someone else because eventually all of the pretending will come back and bite you in the butt when you finally get something that you really like, that you want to hold on to forever.. but they like the someone that you are pretending to be. Good luck!

[Pam M]

I feel the same way- perhaps not because of the same reasons you listed but more often then not I find my self wondering- who cares about me, why don't I feel loved etc. I was diagnosed with mild depression but I also realized that i'm growing and moving forward in life. I'm also growing up and my attitudes and opinions on things are changing too. I am more assertive, straight-forward and 'real'. I have little patience for juvenile antics, mindsets etc. People are hard to accept change in others if it means that they are losing something that was comfortable to them ( a passive yes-man type friend) or a wing man etc. Be proud of your individuality and know its okay to walk alone. You will find the group you fit in with. People to compliment you and understand you.