Do you have any Idea over my expereince on friends?

[Praveen Jazz]

First of all, I want to talk frankly...

I was 18 years old and finishing school in last July, I just entered in to college. In high school, I have no friends really.... No one is there to call me to ask what I am doing in week end or to chat and laugh with me. The main reason at first is I was a only one Christian in my whole class. I was brought up in Religion and so I will not do any thing that my mommy did not wants to.....I will never smoke, drink or do any kinda foolish illegal activities the teenagers do......

It creates a different in me to others. I never use to talk with girls unless they talk to me and also I use to read abt history a lot as my dad was a history professor.By my activities, my class mates are thinking that I was very innocent like a child. Taking this as a point, they begin to make crack jokes on me.

So from my 11th grade, I have been alone...alone and alone and it made me feel disgusting....It really made me mad and really hate this kind of life. If we got free hours in school, all friends use to wander together, while I use to sit in the school garden whole time.

But now, specially in summer vacations, it became worse and felt so sad and boring to sit in front of the computer to play games and to read books alone.

Usually all girls in my school like me a lot cause they think I am quiet. At first I have some girl friends, but all they want from me is not friendship, but more that that(...like sex(hope my mother will not see this)..),.,,,

I tried to have some friends in Facebook, bt since they don't know abt me personally .....I think they hesitate to talk with me in web cam....

I am a lover of nature and love book reading and also like History, maths and any subjects reletes to Agriculture. There are no clubs in my place and so I feel my life is boring........I know it is the time to enjoy my youth life, bt I feels like I am missing...

Also next month will be a holiday for me....Even now on wards, I begin to worry how I am going to spend....I have no cousins or any relatives( reality is I don't know whether I have or not cause my family got seperated)...

I use to be honest to any person I knew as much as I can(My teachers use to say so)....So, if there is online organizations or online magazines or volunteer groups there I may get a friends to contact and to speak( not to chat or txt).....plz give me a information.....

I hope you may understand my sitution. Reality is there is no one for me even to share my personal things with them, cause you know a teenager can't share all things with their parents,....even though U love them very much.....

Don't think that I was too religious. Reality is no one will can find me my religion. I never share any thing abt that to the people I know. Also I hate of having friendship with the Church people cause they are corrupt.....CHURCHES ARE CORRUPT.........

[Del]

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