Feeling depressed at the age of 17 and have uncontrollable thoughts of suicide, what do I do!?

[Matt]

Hi everyone
I'm a male who is currently undertaking secondary school. Well, I was an extremely outgoing child, and could converse with any person at my school and for the most part I felt like I mattered and that I belong.

Now, I struggle to want to speak to my friends let alone anyone else. I would sit in class with my group, but would be, and feel isolated from everyone. I feel like I don't belong , and I feel that I'm an insignificant part of society. In some classes, I don't even speak and just keep to myself, with my head down on my desk. I live with constant anxiety, my grades at school have dropped and for the first time in many years... I broke down in tears.

I have never felt what I'm feeling at the moment and I don't know what to do. I go home and I do not talk to anyone via text, Facebook or any other means of social communication, something that has played a big part in my life. I have no one...

I don't even choose to study in the meantime as I believe I won't get the results I want to achieve and believe there is no point.

I have been against suicide all my life, but it has crossed my mind uncontrollably and I don't want to resort to that, but I really don't know what to do from here, I have hit rock bottom

[cutelagayguy]

Well your depressed so you probably need antidepressants.
I take Effexor Xr http://www.effexor.com it's very cheap ask your parents you need to see a psycharitrist right away.
Effexor has no sexual side effects.

[Maggie]

Nawww im sad to hear that sweet heart i've been through the same thing but i was 11 i just remembered i WILL walk down an isle one day some one WILL care about me and WILL love me keep that in mind! Xoxo

[Violet]

I get what you mean - I feel depressed sometimes too and i have been so anti- suicide all my life also. I used to think "How could people let themselves get themselves own so much"

I understand that you think "insignificant" in life, but you will really see the significance (if you could see) you play in many people's lives, and you never know who they may be. The reason being is when someone commits, that it gives all the people around them sooo much grief. It is just not worth it.

One of my friends, her best friend, who I only met once, commited suicide a couple of weeks ago. The effect on my friend has been so large, that the poor thing is having uncontrollable thoughts about herself also.

Don't do this to yourself, and stay strong for your friends..

It is truely important that you DO seek help. Depression is a Mental Illness, may I emphasise Illness, as it is an illness that needs to be treated. I do know from experience that anti-depresents help a great deal, and that it can transform you back straight to who you used to be.

If you want to talk further, I'm happy to talk to you.

Stay strong, you sound like a fabulous outgoing person. It would be a great loss.