I dont know what to do. Im so upset?

[Yay me :)]

I feel like a complete failure. Im a freshman in university and I feel like I screwed up everything!
I have a huge procrastination problem and I cannot stop watching youtube videos or surfing facebook. This led me to study last minute for like two tests and I got an 80 in both of them (terrible when there are people in my class that got like 90s and 100). Also a 76 on an essay. Im eating a lot and I have gained weight and I feel terrible about myself. I tried out for executive positions on campus clubs but only got one (and my leader recently had a talk with me about how Im not doing a good job in my role). I need to get more involved but I dont know how. I need executive positions on clubs if I want a shot at getting a work placement next year.
I live on campus an hour away from home because I was stupid enough and loafted during senior year and didnt get into my top choices for university that were close by. This means my parents are spending more money on me than they should have. They bought me a new laptop this summer despite their financial condition being not that good, simply because they wanted me to do well in university. I miss them terribly and I feel like Im being an awful child just wasting their money on me. My mom got me some new clothes today when she came to visit. Their financial condition is not goof but she got it for me to make me happy.
I also have a hard time making close friends. Its easy for me to strike up conversations with people but its hard to maintain relationships and become close with them. I could study with people everyday (that way I could socialize and study) but I get verryyyy distracted in groups. However its not like Im studying when Im at home.

I had such big dreams when I got into university. Now I see people who are way more involved in extracirriculars, way smarter and way more social than me. And here I am. I feel like Im going to amount into nothing.

My parents have done SOOO much for me to get to this place. I feel terrible being so awful and wasting their money. Its not like I dont want to study. I just have a very bad procrastination and an internet addiction.
I dont know what to do.
Any suggestions or advice?
Thanks so much

[sully]

Professional counselling.

[050nm]

First of all don't stress too much about it, you are not the first or the only person that is not completely satisfied with their college decisions.

What i would advice you to do is the following:
--Study at the library, without your computer, and away from the computers at the library. Make sure you study with your textbook, and unless the hw or study material is online stay away from the computer. (if you have a smart phone and have fb and youtube apps, turn it off and stick it in your book bag while you study)
--Making friends is not as easy as everyone thinks, plus having friends can actually be an even bigger distraction then fb and youtube.

--make a schedule, write down all of your club activities that you have to organize, stick to your schedule. make sure that in your schedule you have some time set aside for fb and youtube so you dont go completely without it.

--Ask your leader what you can do to do a better job, ask her to help you out, its that easy. plus the organization you are part of will help you make friends....

--Lastly try and get tutoring and take advantage of it. in many universities it is completely free.

Once you see how much more successful you will be you will feel proud of yourself, and your parents will see that and will make them very happy.

[AliInCali]

Get a study buddy, someone who you admire and will help remind you when you are offtrack and not meeting deadlines. Someone, preferably, who has some if not all the same classes.

[always b natural]

You know what you have to do, you just aren't doing it.
There isn't much anybody on Y!A can do for you. We
can't go do your club work, we can't go to class, we
can't study and take your exams. Only you can do these
things. So when you are doing things you know that you
shouldn't be, stop - and get back in the groove. lt's called
discipline - nothing magical about it, it just requires that
you start being responsible for your actions, and accountable
to yourself.

Maybe next yr, if there is one, you should pay for your own
schooling. l am sure when you have to come up with thousands
of dollars, rent, food books out of your own pockets, you would
be much more motivated. Nothing like money to get people
going. After all, how are you going to explain wasting probably
$30,000 of your parent's money watching youtube? You could have
stayed home and done that for free.

[Petros]

You sound like such a nice person! I wish I was your friend but I live thousands of miles away First of all I like the fact that you're recognising the situation in such a mature way. I also like that you're putting yourself in the others' position and try to understand how their interpretation of the situation.
My advices is to be more selfish and do not let yourself give up! Be selfish with yourself! That's what I'm doing too! I had a facebook account where I was very active, I made new friends, I exchanged mails, I was being educated and informed but I realised it was eating my life, I was spending too much time in it! So without any notification to anyone I got selfish and deactivated my account! That's it. Go and ask the company to discontinue the internet service from your apartment. Prove to yourself that you can live without internet! How was it like 15 years ago when you could live without it? Can't you do it now? Are you a different person? No, you're the exact same person, so why can't you do it? Become more social, join a sports team, start going for running, set targets and do your best to achieve them! Try to lose some weight, hit on girls who you like, don't care about rejection! Believe me you can do it and it's a shame for such a nice person to be lost in a virtual world. That's what internet is. It's a tool which if you don't use it as it should be used, it's sucking your life and making us zombies. Get outta there ASAP. It's good to pay the bills through the internet and not have to stand in queues for hours but believe me, the second option is better! Maybe picking always the easiest road is our problem.
A friend

[Dave]

This is your first time away from home on your own. That is stressful. Be positive, you can do this. You should find someone to talk to on campus. There is most likely a student wellness center, they can help. Next write out your goals for the rest of the semester. Put them on your wall so you see them everyday. As for procrastinating, I had the same problem. I can not do homework at home. Too many distractions. I would go to the library and do my home work there. I wouldn't go home or to my dorm until I was done. Find out the best way for you to study, we are all different and this is the time when you find out what works best for you.
For the social aspects of college. Find people who have the same interest. This is your time to explore but don't feel like there is a lot of pressure to be a social butterfly. Talk to people, this isn't like high school. The best part of college is more of the student body is mature, especially away from the dorms.