I like this girl, but in spite of it all, a HUGE problem..?

[bj]

First of all, I want to thank all of you who actually read this whole story. I am in a huge problem, that I never have before, and in my mind, it's frustrating, and makes me want to scream. Before I go in depth, we went back to school about 4 weeks ago, August 20th. It was only 5 days before that I broke up with my now ex girlfriend, for certain reasons that I am tired of repeating over and over again. So I am your average guy, I am not really skinny, but not fat either. Just went back to school, and I am actually keeping good grades so far.

I have recently started liking the type, not really emo I don't guess, because I don't judge, but the type that is as described: likes hard rock/heavy metal, likes black, black/brown hair, it just catches my attention.. I find them really attractive. Even if they do have a cutting problem, I don't care.. a person is a person, and I don't judge from the past. I hate to say it, but I have had a cutting problem too, following many life events that I don't feel is important in this story while I explain the timeline here.

On with the story.. so we just went back to school, and I have met this beautiful girl named Anna. Justg as described above, the type I like. I don't go for looks. They do matter, but only a small portion. I mainly look at the inside type, which you will see why in a few minutes..

My friend Joey likes her also, and they are currently dating. After he said he would back off for a while (which he did), I appreciate it that he did that, but it didn't give me enough time to build our relationship with each other. It didn't give it time for it to build, and progress. Saying that, one of my other friends, I guess you could say, likes her also. His name is Jackson. He is the typical "I am better then everyone else, and no one can kick my arse". So yeah, your pure jerk. Even though he can be nice, he wasn't so nice just 1 day ago.

So Joey has been helping me, and I explained to him on facebook, everyday about my problems too.. I didn't think she liked me, so I just assumed the worse, about how she will pick him, and it did happen. What did I tell you? Following this, I am not so much nervous to talk to Anna, but many of her friends are always around her when I want to talk.. which obviously makes it hard for me to talk to her and flirt with her effectively. I make a point to talk to her in the morning before class, sometimes during class (I sit right behind her), and on the way to 2nd period, and then 3rd period, and then lunch, and then before we go to the bus at the end of the day. So yeah, sure I don't talk to her as much as Joey and Jackson do, but how can I when I try to, but her friends are always around her? I am starting to wonder if the talking to her before the bus will be scratched out too, because her current boyfriend (Joey) is always around her now, and following her. I got my female friend to ask for her phone number for me, but she didn't know me well enough so she said no. I plan to ask her again this Friday, because she got it taken away. I have complimented her about 3 times, with "You look very nice today, Anna". So it's a given right now, I will ask her for her phone number myself, personally, in a few days. So I introduced myself officially, and she did too the following day. We are friends right now, and like I said earlier, it wasn't enough time to progress.. Joey didn't give me enough time at all.

Here is with the climax starts. So yeah, I am not really nervous anymore to talk to her, but I started writing notes to her too. Yesterday I gave her one, and at lunch she was still reading it. Joey, my friend Alex, and her female friends all read it. I was hoping it wasn't my note at first, but it actually was after I found what was written on the top.. I started to blush of course. Joey kind of tried to stifle his laugh.. but then Jackson grabbed the note out of her hand, and Anna kept saying, no, I need it, pleaseee give it back. He didn't, and instead just laughed. The rest of the lunch period I cried.. not much, but enough for everyone to notice. I just had a bunch of tears in my eyes. Then Alex asked me what was wrong, and I just started crying more. I don't even know how it was that funny, either.

Joey then talked to her at the end of yesterday, and apparently Anna didn't even know I liked her, even though it was pretty obvious in my eyes... she proceeded with how she felt like a huge b**ch, and he even said "You should.."

After that I apologized and she did too, and I assured her it was okay. Luckily the note today she Jackson, nor the others saw. Call me a faggot, but yes I DID cry.. because it hurt my feelings. Yes I have feelings, like any other human on earth. But yes, Joey is dating her now. What should I do..?

[Veronica C]

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