What do I do about my friends?

[Harry-Potter]

My group of friends started of really small and we all trusted each other and were really close. But two years have passed we are still friends except now the group is bigger and in that bigger group.. My friends have made smaller groups within the big group (if that makes sense at all).

With this i think it causes problems because we all now can't trust each other anymore and we aren't as close. At first I thought the reason was because I got put into a different timetable to them. But now I'm not sure

Lately I've noticed me getting left out of the inside jokes and not getting invites to things. I sort of just put up with it. But things started getting hard when I knew they started to get annoyed by me third wheeling. Im optimistic and I always saw that as a good quality. But hearing from my friends that I am annoying because of that and that I never have fun because I always finish my work in classes they just talk and laugh in. It's gotten pretty sad that the teachers started defending me. But I just faked a smile and kept going.

But what really got me down is seeing movies and tvshows about friends. I miss being close to my best friends. Now I can't even trust them with my school bag while I go to the bathroom. I guess we all have just changed and grew up. One of my best friends left the group, the other now only thinks about impressing guys and clothes and magazines, one left the country and the other is still in the group but have found new friends within the bigger group.

I've tried making new friends but it's really hard. It's the third year of school so everyone already has their groups and cliques so I can't just move. I tried sitting with others but Its not the same.

I just don't know what to do. I feel left out of things and that I'm there second choice to everything. What makes it worse is seeing photos of them having fun without me posted on instagram and Facebook. Even in conversations (online and face to face) it's just not like before.

[xoxo]

Welcome to growing up. In another five or six years, you won't have the same friends you do now. It'll be hard, but just be outgoing and keep up the optimism! They are just angry that they don't have that quality. Don't lower yourself to their level, find friends that can talk about more than things in magazines. Good luck.