Feeling lonely, with no friends?..?

[Lixxie]

I feel like when i was little and in junior school I always had had the opportunity to have friends. From nursery I was best friends with two other girls, we were a trio up until senior school. One left to go to a different school, the other stayed up til sixth form but left when she had a baby... During my time at sixth form I made friends, and always had the opportunity to make more but my friends who get jealous when i hung round with them, saying i was using them just because i saw them at break time and the others at lunch, but really i loved all these friends equally. So in the end, so i didnt 'betray' my original two friends i didnt hang out with the other girls much anymore, losing contact and now never speak. I'm now 20 years old at university. I love life at uni, i have friends, best friends, then those you socialise with on nights out, lectures etc. I feel like that was the life i was meant to lead. But coming home in the holidays, I have no one. Seeing pictures up on facebook of all these people from my school in groups of 10 or more, going on holiday together, nights out, i have none of that. I mean dont get me wrong I have the girl who had a baby but.. that speaks for it self shes busy, doesnt go out and has a boyfriend. I have another friend who im closer to but its literally just us two, and i just feel so alone at times as shes not that sociable. I dread coming home just because i feel so low, and lonely so often. I see everyone having a great time, and though I love uni, its only temporary, god knows what ill do after that finishes.

I contacted one girl on facebook the other day, we were inseperable up til senior school which is a real shame, i saw her a bar the other night so thought id say hey on facebook! we've chatted, but its clear shes moved on and has other friends now.


What do i do? :/
signed lonesome
x

[?]

Do what I do if one of my friends is anti-social and doesnt go out much...drag her ass out!