What should I do, I still love him...Please help?

[savannah]

Hello Here is the story. It's a little long, but please read it, I really need your help
Two years ago I was the new girl at school. I had the best school year of my life. No drama, I was friends with everyone. There was this one guy I was really good friends with, we used to take extra classes together, he always made me laugh, talked to me, told me I was beautiful and I was always happy around him. He is the popular type of guy, that all girls like and talk about. I started to like him too, really like him, but didn't know if he felt the same way about me, so I never asked. But one day, the last day of school, he told me that he had feelings for me. I wan't really shocked, but I knew that it wouldn't work out because not only was I going to another school (again), but I was going on a trip with my family 2 days later. I ended the whole thing before it even started because I knew that I couldn't be with someone that I could hardly see. We still spoke through facebook and I could feel that he was hurt...and I was even more. I started loosing contact with him over the summer, and when school started, we stopped talking altogether. I used to see him once a week at a place where we took extra classes but we were in different groups. We never spoke. I tried avoiding him as much as I could because I felt hurt, every time I saw him. He made a new facebook, deleted the old one, and never added me. My friends at my old school told me that he is dating another girl, and I'm pretty sure they are still together. That hurt me even more.
Three weeks ago, the first day of school, things got even more awkward because I ran into him. So yeah, he is at my new school now and we have 5 classes in common(I think he had to switch for personal problems) The first class, I was a bit late so I sat in the front while he sat in the back. The next class(we stayed in the same classroom) he sat behind me. I couln't turn around, I just couldn't. Then, at every class, he started to sit behind me. Once, he even talked to the boy next to him about my best friend which I found very strange since they are not friends, and he knows she is my best friend. A week later, he sat at the other side of the classroom and just kept staring me for 4hours. Whenever I looked at him, he didn't look away, just kept on staring. Then I waved at him, he laughed. My friend who was next to me was kind of hiding me and I could swear he pulled his chair back so he could stare at me. He always sat behind me and I never had the courage to even turn around and say '' hey''. I'm afraid he might reject me because he has a girlfriend.
Why does he stare at me? What does this mean? He doesn't even talk to me .I still like him, maybe even love him, but I know I can't go back in time and fix what I did. I feel bad because we were great friends, and I felt like I could tell him everything, and now we don't even talk. I cry at night because I miss him, alot. I wish I could start over, but I know I can't because he has a gilfriend.
What can I do to appear more confident, which I'm really not, not at this point. What can I do to win him back, if its still possible.
A lot of my friends noticed that he looks at me a lot, and that he always tries to get close to me, and they don't even know what happened between us. I miss him..alot. I miss talking to him, laughing with him.
What should I do? I know I should start talking to him, but I'm never able to, I don't know why. I want to be more confident. Please help me! Please.

Thank you

[Pumpkin]

It sounds like he is angry at you maybe for like ending it before it started and if you said you were movin schools before just to let him know. Why did you stop talking altogether? That may be why he's upset with you. And you said you could feel that he was hurt and he probably still is for that reason and I feel you need to get him to listen what you have to say like apologising for it and say why you didnt go out with him because he doesnt understand and he feels rejected. He was probably taking about your friend to make you jealous or get a reaction from you tbh. he probably has a girlfriend as a distraction from liking you, many boys or girls do that so iit hurts less. If you talk in class and he says something nasty then make sure you have come backs, you need to explain to him about everything as it wont change unless you do, I can tell he misses those times too. You need write email talk or facebook him about what happened and if you fb or email just say I wanted to tell you to your face but I dont think you would have listened, fb is a goog idea as you can see if he's read it or not, but I feel you need to become clean as right now he likes you but you rejected him when you showed signs or liking him so he feels a little led on, not on purpose! But thats what he thinks and the reason you said he was getting upset. When he reads that then he might feel better and the tension will gradually go, but id say you need to be honest with him, good luck! And if he bes a pain get your friends to back you up, you can do it!!