Why do i go through episodes where i don't want to talk to anyone?

[Gemma S]

Other than my mother. I've deleted my facebook, kept my phone off and i feel this huge emptiness, everything and everyone feels like such a burden. I go through episodes like this every now and then and have suffered through depression, suicidal an eating disorder, drinking problems and agoraphobia.
I'm 19.

[Michael]

Those sound like depressive episodes.

When you are experiencing them, you have to fight it. Set your alarm and force yourself to wake up early- too much REM sleep makes it worse. Also, force yourself you go out and do things and get exercise.

The "why" part is difficult- it might be genetic factors, maybe you don't get enough sunlight, maybe you don't eat enough healthy food, maybe you had psychological trauma that you have not yet dealt with- maybe all of them are true.

[Mr. Cameron]

This is a common problem for people your age. Everyone is different and depression can be caused by any number of things. You may consider speaking in person with a therapist, it can set you free if you let it. I use to go through times like this and it really hurt. I did this because I was depressed and it eventually caused more depression. You should find an activity outside of the house to involve yourself in. I ride my bike and hike. keeping your diet consistent and balanced will improve your moods tenfold. the most difficult thing will be motivation and action. You do not have to leave your house, you can stay there forever if you so choose. You can sit around and watch your life fly by and wonder why you can't be happy, or you can save yourself from those questions. I know what it feels like to be so depressed that taking your own life seems to be the best solution and it sucks because the people around you cannot relate. This causes you to retreat inward and distance yourself from them. They are not stupid and they want to see you happy but they just do not know how to help because they have never been where you are. Drugs will make you ok but they are only a mask and eventually make things worse, trust me on that one. I will not tell you how to live your life or tell you ten steps to a better being but you should know that you are not alone. You have friends and you are loved, this is temporary and it will pass. take things one step at a time, you are young and have lots of time to learn how to improve your social life. Social skills are just that, skills. Skills are learned not inherited and the key to learning is practice and devotion. find a cause to fight for above yourself, you may not be fulfilling any of your intrinsic needs. You may suffer from a mood disorder such as bi polar depression. If that is the case there are a number of options available to you, medication can help and there are many great new drugs that really do work. I would like to share a poem with you that has helped me through some dark times.

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rage at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my friend, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.