I am feeling so depressed? Just down, and obsessive with some stuff?? I feel so horrible.?

[Nomnom]

I am a 15 year old girl, in London. I'm actually asian.
- I have suddenly developed an obsession with One Direction. I have been stalking them and trying to get them to notice me on twitter. I can't actually stop, and I feel really sad if they don't follow me or reply (which is always). they do though sometimes to other fans...

- I really want to be a professional singer, but without any lessons (I'm not allowed) I won't be able to get anywhere. Everyone says I have potential. It's so annoying, I have all these likes and comments on youtube but I never get noticed.

- I actually don't know what to do with my life. I have no goals, no matter how good my grades are (As, A*s), my parents alway expect better. Sometimes I want to try harder, but I never can.

- All my friends say I am beautiful, both in and out. They say I have a good body, great personality. That can't be true... All the guys I've liked, something had happened but there was never that 'spark'. I know I'm young, but I think nothing will ever happen for me. I sometimes think it's because I'm asian (Chinese). Is it really true guys don't go out with asian girls? That's harsh...

- I actually hate the way I look. I have a fat face, small eyes, huge lips, weird hair and ears, bad skin, huge butt... the list goes on. No matter what other people say, I never feel confident about myself. No boy has (I don't think) ever liked me. That's how I know it's true.

- I just feel depressed overall. I'm always hectic, busy, so much school work, pressure, stress.

-My dog is going out of control, and I miss the old, obedient him.

I don't know what to do. I just feel like giving up sometimes, yet I know everything I've just mentioned mean nothing. they are just a teeny part of my life I shouldn't care about.

But I do.

Please?

Help?

[petee p]

Look up exercise and depression online it releases endorfins which improve mood and brain chemistry. and Art Therapy; channelling what ur feeling into something creative helps ur brain process the negativity in ur head. also find some volunteer work; helping others or nature builds selfesteem, gives life new meaning gives perspective and good karma... u dont have to believe in god but finding some spirituality can really help and good karma is a good start... basically research all u can on depression then when u find things that help come on here and share with the other deprrssed people, more good karma. Why not join clubs groups and activities outside of school where you ll meet like minded people. Or challenge urself by joining groups u wouldnt normally be interested in.